Crete Retreat - May 2024
Eyes open. Are you awake, are you asleep?
Eyes closed. Are you asleep, are you awake?
You discover!
D1 Session 1
The Idea of a Someone
You want to end the idea that you are a someone, because somewhere there is a knowing that the someone is the repetitive experiences that you have that you run from. You run from the someone, not the something.
It’s All One Organism
Maybe we might discover There's Nothing we can experience that is not made of what we essentially Are. Made of it, moving as it, thriving as it... and it all is one organism.
And if a bee came over to the flower, both the bee and the flower is one organism.
Don't divide those. Yet somehow, we seem to have a human mind that divides everything, as if this one organism is not knowing how to regenerate itself, know itself, abundantly thrive as itself. And, as a separate sense, we think that we need to do something about this. In that, we build a separate sense of self that we can't seem to shed or see that that is the problem. And that's a funny thing when I say 'that is the problem', because there's no problem at all!
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…and I'm not saying that there's an experiencer there, separate from what it experiences,
otherwise, that would separate the bee from the flower, and there would be two and not one organism.
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The moment I step back into the Black, or the Deep, there's just Pure Being.
The moment my eyes open have I stepped out of Pure Being?
Or has Pure Being appeared as All that we experience?
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When you enquire so purely…
When That that is Deeper, moves in the One who perceives this moment that blink begins to open new levels and new possibilities, or Deeper or Higher Realities. That's what changes the experiencer. That's what gives the experiencer the ability to let go of an outside experience and brings it's I together. And I am experiencing the experience of being total, whole, one organism, one power, one Love, one movement.
If you look, just today: how many patterns did you follow? or how many patterns moved? How many patterns did you identify with, but didn't realise you got identified with a pattern?! Nothing wrong with this, be like a child! Wow!
What does it do when you enquire so purely? You might discover that your depression is a pattern, and both the depression, which is the energy of the pattern has nothing to do with who you are - it's not the WHAT of who you are. It's simply the separation of the bee and the flower, or, the depression and the mind. If you saw that they are one organism, and that they have the power behind them that moves the next possibility, would there be somebody who is depressed? Or is depression an idea in the mind? And that the mind is holding onto a pattern that thinks it's you, bound to particular patterns! There are deeper Cosmic patterns, or etheric Divine patterns, so this blink of an eye (I) can experience itself deeper and higher.
So maybe even an apparent depression is a medicine for what's next! As a solvent to dissolve an identification with a lower energy pattern. Did it belong to you or is it just in the mix of what we call ‘human’?
And we might find as we grow that there are larger depressions, kind of on a Universal scale that also lead to a place that's beyond what we would describe as depression.
Leave Up and Down Alone
When we are free of down and up, having something to do with how I should feel: ”I don't like feeling down, I prefer to be up!” When we let go of all of this then the down and up is building you subtle bodies, new realities are coming in, there is no down and up. It's a movement that alchemises and makes it possible for higher deeper levels to have existent form. Down and up left alone is incredibly beautiful, it makes it possible to have full human experience, from deeper knowing, pure vibrancy. There's nothing to purify. That's an up idea looking down.
Day 1 Session 3
Are you Clear that Light comes out of You?
Are you clear that light comes out of What You Are?
You might have got to the place where you are clear that You are light.
But then you might get to a place that even light come out of What You Are ,
so therefore you must be prior to light."
Knowing and Knowledge
Knowing is light knowing light . Knowledge is time-space or identification with experience seemingly belonging to a concept of a person. That's knowledge . Knowing is not the known. It will at some point come in as knowing knowing ...it never actually becomes known unless you identify with its manifestation in space time.
If Brad is known, that’s knowledge. That's just imprinting, patterns ..’I like this I don't like that ..bla bla bla.’ That's that. But if you are knowing being knowing, that will never actually enter time. Brightness without filters shines. And everything throughout the universe is shining the illumination of knowing knowing itself .
Manifestation then is instant. It is not a something that manifests in a space-time . It is shining now.
Is the mind designing you as an identity?
Is the mind designing 'Brad'? Is the mind designing activity through a locate-able somebody? Or is being just shining and you can't find anyone there but this brightness?
Wherever you are dull…
'Wherever you are dull you're immediate light is not allowed to enter because every concept will disappear. In other words change . When we want to keep out BM identification we're holding in to the conditional aspects of our self as if that's more valuable than the invisible illumination everything, which is Self. What is the nature of Self ? I don't know ...surely it's spontaneity.
Doors to deeper Reality ( The Form )
How many doors into deeper reality do you have ? And how many doors into deeper reality are in the body?
Is there deeper reality in the body? If there is deeper reality in the body, why stay with something that is less.?
Move to the deeper realities within the body..this is the very nature of the practice of The Form Reality Practice .
Mind is a concept
Who can see the mind? Who can say the mind is a concept? In deep dreamless sleep, would you say whoever you are knows mind or knows anything? I say, that as you awaken to being aware, which I just called 'never not here', you awaken to Awareness being the ground of it all. So you begin to see you can be aware of being aware and that never goes anywhere.
As you beginning to awaken to being aware in this human life or this three dimensional life ..if you awaken to being aware here- Now. So it’s not the awareness of a thing ...I am aware of a glass, I am aware of a flower ..come to the next level. I am aware of being aware. It's clear is it not ...here is awareness of an appearance and a felt solidity of what you call a glass. In the dream state a glass may still appear but it will appear differently to this one here . and as you go deeper you will discover that being aware of the glass is simply showing you that the glass is made of awareness. All this is the manifestation of awareness. and as Awareness begins to be aware of being aware of the glass it begins to experience light ..and another way of saying light is knowing ..
In what we call this room or this experience of being human .most humans only have one slide show of light . They do not know invisible light. This is visible light , but there is a whole spectrum of the singularity of light , which appears as the universe and rather like being in a cinema which is absolutely black and light shines and there is the screen with an apparent solid experience and to you what you are seeing appears sold ..that's no different to you seeing that glass , that's no different than seeing each other.
That glass on the cinema screen is no different than this glass sitting here. You could say a different energetic attune-ment or energetic value ..frequency but nonetheless when you look at a cinema screen , the glass there is as solid as that glass there. They’re the same
Being Aware
Being aware you transcend object -subject -ivity.
You begin to be aware of being aware...and the fulfilment!
I cannot tell you what the fulfilment is ...it's not something that you're heading to.
It's what you discover you already are .
So as awareness you can be aware of being aware in deep dreamless sleep. No one there but awareness. But from being aware of being aware light happens . The black let's light ad light happens ....
The singularity of that light within its stream has many streams ..some of these streams are made visible , depending on what apparatus consciousness has . In the human domain consciousness has the apparatus of sense perception ....
The apparatus of mind turns light into sense perception. and between light and light manifesting there is the sound of creation which is now and it’s that sound of creation that is the universal mind. You might find this in ancient teaching....but that Big Bang is mind that makes it possible for awareness and the letting of light , which is not sense perception but living awareness, Some call that the divine realms , unmanliest, invisible light and the sound of the big bang is the sound of the mind that is the creator source ...but there is no one there creating . So the big bang is the moment of that mind that I am saying is a concept. The big bang , which I am saying is universal mind and all within it is still that light and awareness and never did it involve anybody or anything and we call that God or Source consciousness and yet we call ourselves human.
From that realisation ..whoever realises that and I am suggesting that Awareness or the Self realises itself , then the knowing of that as a concept becomes true and real because of what one is and then one sees the play and the game . That the big bang is a play of the insensible worlds of light streaming from the source of Awareness in the same instant .
What we call mind is a space without limit of the outpouring of light and Awareness. The light of Awareness without knowing that it is doing it , creates mind . Mind is rather like the canvas in which the light of Awareness pills onto and in the moment of that Big Bang ..that big bang contains all the elements for sense perception. So there is a reconfiguration of light as energy and that energy configures itself in the elements ..fire water air ether and earth ..and in my experience ..whoever he is ..you can actually commune and communicate with those elements.
We are Creators
Here we all are in our apparent lives, not realising that we're creating it ourselves. Not as someone, but as what we are a...it just happens spontaneously
But our tendency in this third dimensional domain to add thought and opinion onto experience and create an experiencer and an experience. That creates trauma ..because you will always try to get back to what you were before and so you need to sustain past and future and that creates trauma ..rather than really you are endeavouring to get back to the Now, the true you , where there is no trauma , because that is true you.
Mind is a concept in which it becomes possible to experience being aware, being aware of the created.
The point is being aware of the created and the uncreated ..that's the Self.
The mind conceptualises everything. Being doesn't.
And yet from Being, what you call mind begins to flower and demonstrate directly to you:
"You are fullness , neither born nor unborn. You are the fullness!"
True Power
We have no idea how much power is inherent in being what you NOW are.
Tremendous power is creating this moment of your appearance.
Even the shape of the body, this is why Da Vinci ..you know the Vitruvian man ..this is a geometric shape symbol of power and when the beyond creates a geometric shape of what we call the cosmos or the universe. And there is nothing in the universe that does not contain the geometric shapes of power. Just like when we dance The Form...
Our body is the mudra or the symbol of a greater power. That is also how we are also able to give power to anything that we do , anything that we say. that we think anything that we feel. So we actually create geometric shapes that empower either the way we think about ourselves, how with think about others , how we feel about ourselves or other. We create these geometric shapes that give power to our ideas of ourselves and others.
When you drop all that idea you come to the pure shape of you, which is radiant, which is the power of Now, which is the power of the beyond , which is the power of Now appearing here and now is creation and when you return to that power
When you return to that power and there is not a word that you say or a thought that you think that does not contain original light and power. Life becomes powerfully simple, powerfully joyful , powerfully blissful, powerfully radiant. You can’t make it happen. It's just your simple return to discovering what you are .
As you sit with yourself and others, be very aware of the shape you give your power to . separate sense of self and other or the One?
That power that we thought we belonged to , the belief system is very powerful but your original power, which is of presence is the one and only single power - the true I .
That's how we learn to transform those ideas we have about self an other - we discover we are that one
Why not give power to what you are at the deeper level of your heart. That realigns everything and we begin to experience the transformation of self , the transformation of life and we begin to enter a different possibility in life . It's not the person that enters that , that person is the instrument of awareness moving deeper, awakening more deeply. But that person then begins to be the manifest instrument o that power and that person then begins to be anointed in and as that power. Such a person does not experience death. I am in another place one can say.
Awakening as Presence
If you are awakening in the manner we are looking at, as Presence, your body is the presence of verticality and depth. Your body transmits that verticality and that depth and it relates to that and it moves that spontaneously. Literally a cosmic being of divine potentiality.
The whole cosmos is feeding this point of itself to express what it is . Its ability to manifest the unusual to manifest the unseen, to manifest the next without concerns, past or future. And what is manifestation? An unusual appearance of That that cannot be explained. That that has no beginning or end. That that is God-like in nature.
The body-mind becomes completely free here and you become completely free to express what you discover you are. in the Now.
Eyes Open - discover the expansion of your own Awareness.
You may begin to actually see that things are in a different place . The chairs in this space have more spaciousness around them as if they were floating in a sea that is invisible..Such openness doesn't make one superior , such openness makes one available to serve.
This is what you are as you are walking down the street, a transmission of possibilities that are inherent in everybody.. You are not someone walking down the street doing the same old thing. You are a living star..shining possibility. Awakening self to Self. Some people call that shepherding ..to me it is just plain natural.
Day 3 Session 1
A human being is a vibratory form of impermanence.
The body is a mudra of the cosmos and of the consciousness that is knowing itself as the cosmos.
You are invited to discover all that you are!
Is it clear that you are here sitting on the chair?
It has to be clear.
Because you are about to hear the language of your multidimensional Pure Self.
If you are here sitting on the chair,
the chair has to be you,
the floor has to be you,
the sea has to be you,
the beach has to be you,
everything has to be you,
Why is that?
So this apparent three dimensional aspect of your multidimensional self called The Pure I can illume every aspect of itself.
That's what you are looking for.'
The Form - Bowing Down from High Prayer in Part 1
A human is not a human without the aspects of where it's coming from and illumined from.
a human remains only in the survival chakra, down below and doesn't even know there is an Earth chakra, below even the feet then you become distorted, or you just seek survival of the imprinting of who you believe you are, through self image.
So when you come down like this ( Part 1 ) hand in high prayer) , you're coming from Soul Chakra, you're discovering, if you are discovering the powers inherent in the system of what appears to be a body. So you are coming down and when you come down to the earth you are literally connecting with the Earth Chakra. And when you bring your head down you're bringing your soul fully incarnate.
You are literally bowing down, like diving in to the experience of a full embodied life. You put your head on the floor and you've got your hands on the floor and the whole soul meaning and purpose is now streaming in to this moment of the Earth and of the Earth life, but from the multi dimensional perspective of the discovery of who I am, appearing as this apparent human in this moment.
That's embodiment, that is full embodiment and when you come to the floor and you put your forehead on the ground you are literally seeing in to the Earth what presents you, with your potentiality of your multi-dimensional centres. Not what your mind sees is only the image of you that you're an ABC, a 123, you're born and you die....
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What's beyond mind and what creates mind is pure and it's real, because it's not of mind.
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Day 5 Session 1
We think the body is first, but it is last ..or it's in the same unequivocal moment of Now, but the mind makes it looks like the body is first . Because without it looking like the body is first, the mind thinks nothing will survive. So survival is about the survival of the body and that is inherent in all the creatures of the planet who needed to survive..
The Body Is a Vehicle of Information - a Messenger
The body for most people is their centre of attraction . In other words you do speaks as if you're a body and you do speak as if you're a body-mind.
But the body is the vehicle that carries where you are coming from. It's a messenger. A border messenger , a vehicle of information.
To embody the invisible is to be clear what the body is. It is information from where you come from right now. It gives consciousness the ability to have immediate expression of where it comes from right now.
You could say" Right now I am coming from the past " , so your body must be full of that information . You could be constantly speaking about the future , so your body will be fll of the information of the future. And if you check those two out, the information of the future is the information of the past
Questions to consider during the session :
“How are you holding together known attention, where you are actually now on another level ?
You need to withdraw your attention from that.”
“Discover where you’re holding attention that’s holding you back from a new place to have your attention…
Somehow you think that that image is against you, or, that that image should remain,
but it just transforms into another image of you”
On Thought
Most people have been absorbed by thought, rather than discovering what it is. It's a prison, a painful one. If you look at thought, its knowledge linked to the known, its's an impression. An impression that the mind imprints as it takes pictures of this moment.
And then through mind it will link that picture to an emotion and that really gets that in to the cells of the body mind and you just create an image of yourself around a thought patterned and an emotional charge. If you look at thinking it leads you in to what you might discover is past because it traces back images. And those images are charged with emotional feelings around a feeling, or how you felt about a particular thought around a moment of being. So, a thought is turning the Now, the presence of being in to a thought attached to an emotion and a self image and that's what builds in the brain, that's what builds within a thought system. We call that identification.
Return your attention, presence and awareness where true feeling is abundant, vast and deep,.
This can be experienced as bliss or just plain simple wonderful joy! And thought is no longer an enemy. It's the ability to allow light to shine on anything that you want to know and understand, without attachment to a thought through emotion, that actually has nothing to do with you personally but everything to do with discovering. Therefore the ability to discover without the interruption of self survival identification and colouring everything from personalised experience of the mind, attached to feeling, able to discover this wonderful moment.
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Day 5 Session 2
It's a strange thing what we are looking at ...We would like this body to live its fullest extent ..so we look after it. But at the same time we are also opening to the truth 'I am beyond the body-mind identity'. .
So we are not saying let's just drop the body but we are in terms of being a relationship as being09:25 Awareness...and yet we are supporting the healing of the body-mind.
The Form Part 1
Part 1 is a very powerful movement to absorb the energies of the New.
To absorb the consciousness of the New, to absorb the deeper calling into one's life.
Particularly that part where we are bending down. That bending down is kind of like saying : " Every moment I bend down to the higher deeper possibilities of life." ..That is the same as saying surrender.
But we are not bending down to get rid of anything, we are not bending down or surrendering like a puppet ..We're giving everything away. Everything that looks as though it might weaponise living ..
The Self has no idea about weaponising anything.
Everything is the great fruit of the abundance of Being, made of light .
So then the bending down in The Form ..it is the same as we will bend down and discover more than our mind's activity .
There is no Cause and Effect
One has to be dedicated to Self-discovery to discover actually there is no cause and effect in the Deep. There is an expression of the Deep that looks like it is causing an effect..but it is just What Is...
And that is very hard to listen to when you have been built around an image of yourself `14:03 and there is cause and effects.
I mean, there are real causes with real effects ...we can say: "Don't put your hands in the fire" ..natural things like that ..but we're talking about a movement that comes out of Nothing and just moves and is somehow discovering what Its essential nature is within that movement that has no cause and no effect ..just discovery.
We call that Oneness..but even that gets misinterpreted.
So yes we are looking at something that has no cause and no effect and yet you can look into existence for instance on planet earth and you can see a lot of movement. If you build and extension to your house for example, make sure it's on good footings..and make sure you really anchor the roof down..
But we're talking about Consciousness. We're talking about how things work ,how things are in What We Are, how we can relate as Awareness itself.
The Invitation in the dance of The Form
That's why when we dance The Form ..look at your own invitation to discover That that is truly here..
The unseen levels of light . The unseen levels of your own consciousness.
What is it that is here?
But only It itself can discover that .
It can't be a someone .
You have to be opened as Awareness.
The Way of Awakening
The way of awakening is ..'Discover Light', but let's just forget about Light for a moment …
Enter the energy of the moment!
Discover the energy that is here at the moment..truly Here.
Discover the energy of a way..discover that !
Because if you discovered the energy, really discovered the energy.. you 'll also transcend this identity that you're a someone discovering this energy.
Discovering this energy is Consciousness itself ..
And when consciousness discovers this energy, conditionality with that energy drops away and that is free energy. Now that energy can turn it into something else..like the deeper Consciousness that is being realised is energising manifestation in this moment. What begins to land is a New , in the moment manifestation..all the cells get remade ..the brain cells remade ..body-mind firing differently.
Truly Dedicate Your Life to Discover this Moment
We're taught that that takes time but maybe that is because we don't stay with What we are and truly truly dedicate our life to discover this moment.. this that I am . We keep getting distracted by the world we built that has come about because we followed thought and its best mate feeling and we created centres of ignorance , rather than centres of discovery.
So in the Form, become an openness to discover your inherent openness.
What is it?
If you have given your full attention as Awareness in the practice of The Form you come to places where identification just drops away and energy is more abundant .
Day 6 Session 1
Assumptions of Duality
When one awakens you are never going to go back to sleep.
That means everything that happens in the range of light and streams of energy that give vibration to possibility , you will experience and if you confuse yourself with a centre separate from the totality , you will suffer. Suffering means, this shouldn't happen, suffering means "Why not me?" , suffering means "I can't be at peace." , suffering means "I can't sleep." Suffering means so many things.
Once you have awakened you are totally open to it all.
Every level of mind that is going to accuse any phenomenon whatsoever that that shouldn't have happened. As if somebody is doing this!
Even at this stage of the evolution of this green crystal planet of bright love, there are still assumptions of duality.
And it gets very uncomfortable to realise: "Let go of assumptions and realise you are aware of being aware..."
I know it seems like that ain't gonna work ..but it does for What One Is.
Energy and light and energies and energies will still collide or merge together . And there is no a speck of energy in the universe that doesn't desire merging . The energies that are still picking and choosing as if they're separate and they needs something that is good and they really don't want anything that is bad, they will only find a mix.
Of a good that's not good and a bad that's really bad and yet all of that is the design of the cosmos to awaken The Self to itself amongst its light energetic forms of display within its own bright Awareness!
I find that absolutely astonishing! Astonishing!
And yet it can still surprise one of the lack of deeper understanding and an emergence of that understanding amongst what seems to be human 'other than kind' .
Once awake - never asleep. Even in what you call sleep there is more awake-ness. That you are not some phenomenon. You're aware of being aware and you 're aware of knowingly aware in streams prior to existence and prior to mind and you can also be aware to be knowingly aware within mind streams too , whilst apparently you're asleep. Actually you're never asleep. You're utterly awake and exploring how phenomena and the worldless worlds of deeper higher reality are. And that is your blissful enjoyment of being what you already are.
Is the evolution of consciousness itself dependent on the infinite return
of All That Is to All That Is ?
Then the expression of the cosmos moves,
changes, expands ..
and it might with the blink of an eye
just all end and start again.
And we all get a sense ..when you do that actually there is no beginning of this or end of it .
Imagine that you believe you are a phenomenal self and your are not This ! That's called agony. That's groundhog day ...
When Awareness goes deeper
One thing that does happen is when Awareness goes deeper appearing as this phenomenal form , the third eye opens. Nothing can open your third eye ..No amount of trying to get that to open will do it by a separate sense will do it . It simply is natural for it to open as you love your return to discovering what you already are ..sometimes called God or The Beloved.
That often happens with a change of energy ..that your whole relationship with sexuality changes and right there the 3rd eye opens and right there the heart begins to flourish and right there the higher aspects of what we have been calling the soul star and the earth star are shining . It is as though you're beyond it all able to actually have a view from outside at the cosmos in your hands ..as Awareness.
The Form
The practice of The Form is the total discovery that all the phenomena of the higher reality of the Self is all that moves. Non-Duality. We assume otherwise.
It brings the kind of difficulty a small self cannot bear.
It brings the kind of difficulty an aspirant to love , be Love, discover Love as the Self just goes through those doors.
And now there is a transfiguration of appearance and your appearance becomes a vibratory expression in the blink of an eye of the totality you already are. We call that Love.
You begin to be drawn in the most part to other beings who love the Beloved who is the one who is listening to these words now.You meet other beings in a vibratory form of appearance that are all on the same pathless path. That all of this is absolutely an immediate expression of the totality of the One who truly is . It gets very clear to you , that's all there is . To assume otherwise is ignorance .
You will draw the lessons you need
And whoever one is , to your appearance, you will draw all the lessons you need to discover the power of Now . Not to use to get yourself free..because you're already free but to learn that what appears to be a biological body is a tremendous field of cosmic potentiality .That brings all energies together whether phenomenal, whether duality of appearance - all in here is alchemised because I am Awareness. No one is doing it and yet that will be the appearance.
But suddenly these beings that are listening and available will discover meeting places in the deep
But the mind, with all its phenomenal content and you believe it , you will continue to assume and not only an assumption that you're a self , a little old self.
You have to see the mind assumes appearance is real.
Appearance is not real but the one who sees and knows this is Reality.
Then the appearance returns within to meet What You Are.
Whilst there is phenomenal appearance, there is an emergence .
The capacity of any phenomenon to reflect back to the light of consciousness its True Self.
Immediate.
The Beloved loves to individuate so it can love Itself.
When those that love the Beloved find each other,
atoms dance without beginning or end.
A celebration of the One as everyone.
Sexuality
Sexuality is a means by which light realises its immediate experience of being, knowing, aware forming. Energy forms light in to myriads of potentials, to reflect back the light of knowing back to Consciousness. You could say she is the servant of the Beyond, although the beyond also serves her to expand, to realise, to dance fully.
If you look at sexuality, most of us when we think of sexuality we don't see it as energy, we see it as a particular sex thing. We don't see it as something that transports pure knowing or the known. It transports either the openness of one's heart, uncontrived of personal experience or it transports small self to experience itself. Actually the movement is the same thing, the same one. It's how knowing realises itself.
When we open up to the Earth Star we open up to the full potentiality of earth experience to connect with sexuality on higher spheres. In other words, movement, possibility to be able to apprehend, as being human in this case, a greater power and a greater movement of the whole, rather than sex, which is separate sensed self. But both are moved by the same one. If we have an assumption of duality then sexuality turns in to sex rather than discovery that lights and energies are meeting, merging, or even meeting colliding. It's all the same movement for the meeting of the Cosmos.
Prior to awakening you are looking through satisfaction for a limited sense of self through what we believe is sexuality. But sexuality transports you throughout the Universe, its's all Her. So in that first stage where sexuality is some pattern, inherent in it is awakening. Then it might have been sex, but sex is still a movement of sexuality. Then you move where you are looking for relationship, sexuality is wanting things for yourself. It's not just down to having sex, it's wanting things for the small self. So you'll want relationships for the small self, things for the small self. That's all good, that's all ok, that's how this thing works. Then something in you awakens deeper. That's just not working, there's something else here. And so your relationship with things and phenomena and what you once called sex, begins to be seen through. Ad there's another process that begins to happen. Rather than just transporting known energies, you start to explore energies that are not known. So you begin to naturally drop away what you thought you needed. But you still think and assume there is someone there. Cease assuming there's someone there.
So you're crossing a desert there, when you are totally dissatisfied with what you thought you needed. Whatever it is, you're dissatisfied with it. It will seem to be people, it will seem to be things, it will seem to be places, but you are dissatisfied with the reflection of you back to you. Fulfilment comes only in realising what you deeply first are. So somewhere you are learning to transform but not as a self. It just appears that way. So your relationships start to change. Rugby is sex, soccer is sex, hockey, all those games, even golf. Golf is pretty sex! And so as you cross the desert all that stuff starts to drop away. And you start to deepen in the power of now, the energy of now, the presence of now. It begins to change how you perceive, where you perceive from and how you relate. It changes relationships of you to all things. Because you discover somewhere amongst this there is no such thing as all things ; I am the Self,.
So things begin to change and your relationship with you brings different reflections that are also crossing desert, or maybe crossed. And sometimes you'll go back to the disco as it were, the world and you realise that's not it! But it's not that it's not it because it is still the small self, but you are realising what the opportunities are for growth, for evolution that appear to be a human being. And you draw different relationships to you, rather than a love of things and the love of an excitement of a separate self you draw to yourself relationships that love truth. Not that old kind of truth, the duality kind of truth, but the discovery of what truth really is, and partnerships that are deepening in to what love is, even as you cross the desert and you learn to transform those energies of separation crossing the desert. And I don't know if you've ever been in a desert storm but its pretty freaky and desert storms happen while you're transforming your consciousness, your energy, that's also what happens.
Everything gets transformed there, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, actively. It all gets transformed. But you begin to draw to yourself clear relationship to what you're deeply drawn to and yet you're still not a separate entity. That's the play, that's the game. It's hard to get that, but you have to keep looking at this. Cease the assumption of duality, the assumption is that everything is dual. It is not, it's the one. So then when you get to the ocean, by this time your relationship with you is founded, grounded both in the Earthstar and in the soul and beyond and definitely in the heart and the body's energy which is pure sexuality is now enabled to commune, communicate with the entire Cosmos and all realms become possible.
Your mind, literally rather than focused on space time is open to mirror the intelligence of the profound now and all that is available. That is our abundant self. If you look at the Earth for instance and the ocean out there you will see the abundance in sense perception in one movement appears. its beauty, it's profound and it's alive. So then through the question of sexuality, sexuality is transformed.
Deserts
There is a thing about deserts ..as well as heat and camels ..it's sand. It's trillions if not gazillions of particles and those particles either are the content of the collective or those particles are like that song..the poem of the atoms , sand becomes the dance of the atoms . Trillions of particles celebrating the One . And so the sand literally opens you up to transparency..Because you all know sand can turn to glass...transparency..
To whom?Just to yourSelf.
The Form - Shakti
Inherent in the practice of The Form is a profound movement of energy. In the East they might call that Shakti, and inherent in the practice of The Form is profound depth and openness, or pure knowing. And all within and beyond that, in that which is within is the abyss, that is what you are. The practice of The Form is displaying what a life really is. So, whenever you speak, or even if you do not speak energy of sexuality is conveying throughout the Cosmos, communing throughout the Cosmos. The discovery, self doing something, the evolution of consciousness. The growing ability or in this case the appearance of humanity to emerge as a universal being, god like in nature. I other words in enabled to create and to dissolve and if you look, what you truly love is to dissolve and you love the dissolve, how the dissolve recreates not the same thing. That is the energy and power of now.
So in relationship in an endeavour to commune with another that's drawn to you deeply and intimately a love of truth or the beloved with no assumption of duality, that's a different kind of beloved, a different kind of life. You are in that to dissolve utterly and yet in the same breath there's a new creation. That's what now means. Only the mind runs with that and creates division.As self you are realising your self and the entire Cosmos conspires for that to take place, just by being. No guilt, no shame, no blame, just pure realising, discovering the activities of the emerging of energy and light, or the colliding of small self with small self, that is destined to turn to dust.
Day 8 Session 1
“When one loves the Beloved as one’s real Self, deepening and expansion just takes place.”
Just like the practice of The Form: moving as Presence, stillness moves at such a pace, such a velocity, one empties out from the entire field that we call the body, that that no longer serves the growth of all beings.
