So, a lot will happen here. Parts of yourself are no longer going to be fed in the habitual limited idea of yourself. What’s being fed is your higher aspiration, inspiration and connection. And how that will manifest, you don’t know. But if you do know, that’s just the mind. You don’t know.. that’s the uncertainty. The code of uncertainty is a code of divinity.
Uncertainty is divinity.
Uncertainty is divinity because nothing then can manifest or move as not one with the profound. Nothing! All a movement of universal birth, death and possibility as a continuum of expression. It does not know any end this place, it does not know any end.
And I can see it’s been shifted, if you look at that star system, it has been shifted up the access to another point. It’s like shifting up something in your leg, up towards the veins nearer your heart. It’s just been shifted into a place of great potential for more beings. That’s what this shift is. Make no mistake about this. You’ve come to initiate, no matter what you’re going through or who you think you are, you’ve come to initiate this place.
Profound! Beautiful. This is very much a bow down and standing up different. Bow down and standing up different. Very much. Wonderful to be here with all of you.
cosmoFORM
See you’re bowing down to your new innermost life and its unique expression because you’re ready for the end of habitual movement. You want to flow like a river without any dams. Enjoy your connection with it.
If you don't open those unknown doors, you won't have the new consciousness to be able to transform what will definitely come in your space, what will definitely come to be transformed.
Opening doors..
I don't know if any of you have heard of The Mother , who was with Aurobindo? She used to say that you've got to imagine that you can open doors and just open and let it pour in. This is kind of like it is. If you don't open those unknown doors, you won't have the new consciousness to be able to transform what will definitely come in your space, what will definitely come to be transformed.
Right now, stars come to be transformed in what awareness is. Right now, Universes colliding and ending come to be transformed in What You Are as Awareness. That will be the same as some very maybe painful circumstances that arise in your life, we're taught that's a circumstance arising in our life that's something about me.
But what if that's just a microcosm of the macrocosm.. so energies dissolving in the Universe going down black holes so that new life can come out the other end.. What if situations in our life are exactly that? You following what I mean?
So, this invites you to truly see beyond this idea that you're a particular someone as a spot on the planet Earth in the Universe rather than the Self that's shining this.. and to discover that.
So, when we come up against something.. maybe mental, psychological ends up in a relationship way because all that, that I just spoke is a relatedness between us all including the stars, we begin to get invited to pull up, bring down different powers, different frequencies, to really not just tap into our abundance but to see that we're abundant.
When Yin Yang comes together
And I was going to just show you a picture that I took and I pointed it out to a lot of you in that last temple when I asked Mahmoud what this piece is because I saw it as.. he said it was the goddess of earth or creation and she was intimately holding the shoulders of God or Consciousness. I wept, it was so tender, so tender. And she invites him to fully come in. And he had her hand around her to fully come in, but also to fully bring her into him. You could have said that was really Yin Yang.
When Yin Yang comes together everything that's been lived is going to vaporise. Everything that is of no value because you've lived the full value of this moment is going to vaporise. That's when you begin to see whether you've had attachments to who you thought you were and attachments to security, based around the idea that your humanness will never ever depart, but it does every time you go to sleep!
Truly today has been a very incredible day in my heart, particularly what we all together anchored, let's just call it heaven and earth in that temple, so vibrantly clear to me. This is crazy but I'm sure we're in those hieroglyphs somewhere. I don't know but we're on there somewhere and it will be found at some point.. peoples that came of light and consciousness to earth a temple in its new place on this earth. This is what we're doing in daily life. Are you clear about this?
You'll need more energy from that, more energy from your old ways of being and new energy from the depths that is abundantly what you are. This is what's happening. And, my part in this is to not only keep learning and discovering what this here but also to help point that to people that what seems to be going on in your life that's so unpleasant and uncomfortable is actually an incredible power that invites you to enter the new and discover how that is. Now, I have no idea how you feel or hear this transmission but it is a transmission and it's not from a someone!
Certainty is criminal, certainty is terrible, certainty is dead! It's Dead!
The uncertainty is alive, the uncertainty is a spaciousness ready to burst something brand new for each and every being. Your mind wasn't just made to stay in the smallest of subject/object, of time spheres. Your mind is to shine what you first are as a living cosmic divine being.
So, it really is my yearning to see all of us that we come along like this. To shine, to flower, even amongst what something in us might be saying, "this is terrible, this shouldn't happen". That's definitely mind. It all happens in this Cosmos because that's how it grows. Funny thing that.
Have a look at how many temples we’ve looked at since we got together. Just have a look. No need to count them but just feel how many temples we’ve visited. I’m heading somewhere and I have no idea where.. but this is how I’m going to find ‘where’, because ‘where’ is not distant. I am ‘where’. You see how the mind, when anyone says, ‘I am aware’, the mind looks at that person as if they have their, ‘I’ that is aware. We still now, even this group it’s something that’s automatic. I’m not saying spontaneous, it’s automatic to still have something in this human machinery, that when someone says ‘I’ we think they’re talking about themselves sitting over there. Can we see just see this for a minute? I have no idea where this is going, I just know I’m going there because it’s great. That’s the only reason.
So, this ‘where’ I’m going, am I going somewhere or am I the ‘where’ that goes nowhere and through the ‘where’ that goes nowhere, which is called now, it seems that everything happens, if we look. And whatever ‘where’ or ‘here now’ is, does it move in what seems to come out of it and identify with it? Now, what we’re endeavouring to do here is be really fresh. Again, I have no idea where I’m going with this and yet I know where I’m going because I'm going nowhere. This is really simple but it's extremely powerful once awareness, ‘I’ begin to even touch upon this because it's the end of suffering.
Where did you go? Automatically I went here I went there. Is the ‘where did you go’ a dream of appearance no matter where it is? ‘Where’ doesn't go anywhere but can ‘where’ be aware of the dreams or of dream? Now this is very, very subtle and I'm asking you to keep looking deeply on this because I'm not trying to con anybody, I want everyone to kind of look themselves yeah?
So, is ‘here’ is now absolutely timeless? No time. We're not doing something spiritual here please, I'm just investigating and endeavouring to get nowhere. So, is ‘here now’ completely the end of suffering? I'm asking you. You have a look. Why? Is being ‘here now’ not and action but a knowing what I am? It’s a knowing. And is there anything else that’s knowing? Does somehow ‘knowing’ turning from something that’s present as the now, now, if the mind gets hole of it, does ‘knowing’ turn into knowledge?
I don't know if you know this. Knowledge is the known. Knowing is the unknown. It's fresh. I'm not asking you to agree with me. No, no. We're investigating it in our own spaciousness or whatever this is that is listening and that is speaking. Yeah? It's essential we get this.
And certainly, as we dance the Form, it becomes more direct, our experience. Is our deepest experience now?
Can you experience the past? Or is that a function of memory? So, a function of memory is that the now? We’re just looking, just gently, not racing anywhere at all. So, is the Cosmos or everything that we see in sense perception, is it the activity of now in that it just spills out of the now? It doesn't belong to the now, it just spills out. And if it was left to spill out, awareness would get more interested not in where it's going to spill out but how does it spill out? What is it that’s spilling out, and what from?
Yes, I’m speaking absolute mish mash rubbish, I’m speaking that, that you won’t hear in schools. I'm speaking more directly to what you, we, I am as now. It will make no sense to the linear perceptions of an identity that is actually an identity that's false.
It's just a picture, but it contains the energy that awareness gives it. So, if we value an image,
if we value anything in time and embrace, we empower it. But if we leave the image alone,
if we leave this moment, we see this moment is the mind game of time. If we just are truly now, whatever is spilling out is fresh and new and alive. And whatever this is, this body, it doesn't record it and make it a someone and an image. It could be called fullness. It could be called bliss, it could be called nothing whatsoever and yet it could. I don’t like to use the word but I’m going to. It could be called love but not a love that has anything to do with past or future. That is now.
So, back to the temples. We’ve been in some amazing temples that somehow plugged in as the now to the cosmic picture and I suggest as the cosmic picture to the Earth. So, somehow the connection between the cosmic picture and the growth of the Earth and the now. It's a funny thing when I speak like this because I can see where it's going but it doesn't belong to time-space or the future. So, what I'm pointing to is now is overflowing.
But to understand or to come to the fulfillment of now, awareness must not follow where it's going, otherwise this mechanism will begin to identify with it and make it an image and suddenly, as it were, awareness or whoever this ‘I’ that is listening now, as it were, I’m going to use the words ‘get stuck’ but I don’t mean get stuck.. stays in a labyrinth of the outflow, stays in a particular precision where it could enjoy the totality if only it stayed now. It could become the flow.
It could have a vehicle that doesn’t identify with experience but realises the experience is now that is what I am. Fullness. I’m not taking emptiness, I’m talking, fullness. And I’m suggesting to you that when fullness, when full awareness, as it were, as practiced not following the flow out but being the total flow, this body-mind is unlimited and will never get in a groove. It'll get groovy but it won't get in the groove, it won't get stuck in an identification.
And back to the temples. When you were experiencing the temples, were you experiencing them as distant, as other, or was the frequency pointing only back to you as the fullness from which all this spills out? Are you the one on those walls encoded? Are you the one who has released yourself into Eternity, realise you are eternity, which is not time or space or distance or past or future? Are you that eternal one?
And somehow all those cartouches and those walls and the power of that place, is it you on that wall realising that now, now? Is that ‘I’? I get a little bit excited by this but is that what I am? Am I able to explore everything that spills out relentlessly without personal identification, without getting stuck in a groove, without having to realise the falseness of an activity that seems to be located in a particular me, when the activity is abundantly the all, as the only one?
Keep hearing that, no blockages, fresh, new, nothing to follow because it's all spilling out of what I am and in that whatever it is that I am that is eternally now, which doesn't imply space-time or even this idea, moment, no, in this moment. Listen to the word moment. It’s still time, it’s still time. It’s still an identification of something that’s fixed.
So, I’m really asking you, as we’ve been coming into these temples and into the pyramids, was there anyone else that built that or is that the eternal now? Can I say I am that? Not that, I am that, I am the eternal now. When you begin to really see this, everything that was fixated as a fixed position, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, physically, begins to just fall away. And from there whoever I am learns the mastery of that, that pours out of out of what I am. Mastery simply means this, very simple; never moving away from the now as what I am. Never. That's mastery. Never misidentifying with anything that is an appearance in space or time. I can, as it were, look. Remember the Form?
I can look way out beyond all space, all time, and I can look whoever this I is, I can look, and I can say, as I look at the Cosmos or as I come down to Earth, I can say, all that is the activity of now. I don't know if you find this wondrous? Now, all that is the activity of now. That is the activity of now. And whatever that is that’s going on in the activity of now, there’s not a single level that’s not discovering that it is the activity of now, now, no matter what’s going on. Everything is shining, moving as the activity of now.
Now, I’m suggesting to you, like the Form, I’m suggesting to you that when that happens it changes the intelligence. We never now look into the mind as something in the brain, we begin to discover that mind, and if we look at some of the icons, maybe in the Christian religion, I’m just pointing towards that, or maybe even in Buddhism, but that field that’s often depicted in some of those paintings, is mind. It’s the radiant mind.
And it doesn’t just stop here. It’s an egg. It's literally a radiant egg of, I'm going to call it divine, in other words, shining bright ‘now intelligence’. So even now, one can sit, seemingly being someone, and realise that someone is the outflow of this no one. And in very much the same way, those everyone is the same one appearing as everyone throughout the Cosmos.
The language everywhere in the Cosmos, in the divine world, is one language only. Now! One language only. So, become aware that, actually, for us, I'm suggesting this to you, it looks like we are out here, and the sun is out there, and the stars are out there, but I'm going to ask you something, if you can see this, that actually what I am, what we are, is all in a radiant field here. A radiant field here.
And there’s nowhere, where I am, that I can’t enter that field and realise every level or expression of that, that I am, nowhere. And not just, as it were, individually but collectively, I can realise I am the cosmic expression. I can realise I'm a cluster of stars. I can realise I'm the Earth and all it is. I can realise the Earth, the stars and the heavens, now, in this field I am. And if we follow that field, we find its root is in the heart.
But if we could be convinced that there is such a thing as space, time and memory, that events happened to me, then I will stay, as it were, in the outflow and some dimension not knowing the vast flow I am.
See it's more about the transmission than the words I say, isn't it? It's more about what one picks up than what the words say. Another level was of ‘I’, there are no words. This is a dream of the now. But there are myriads of dreams of the now and the now is never identified with the dream and the now is never caught in the dream. But the now is dreaming everything but it doesn't know all this is the outpouring of its radiance. And yet it finds this ultimate truth through ‘I’.
Anybody does not call themselves I? So, then you must be that. You must be that. So, the mastery is always now. So much now that whoever I am may as it were become aware, there’s other words to use, become aware when I identify with a sensation in time-space in a projection in a protection in an identification with particular experience.
But if I look, look very finely, the only experience is now. Now this is a strange thing, because this is a ridiculous thing I'm going to say. But I'm going to say it.
When one has truly experienced the depths and brilliance of now, truly experienced that as What One Is, so there's no experiencer, you really know what now is. You really know what now is.
So, I truly know, whoever I am, I'm not confident at all. I'm that. Very clear, that the depths of nothing, light came from that nothing and simply spilled out and filled the field with radiance. And within that radiance is the activity of the now with no beginning and no end. And whatever I am, is free to enter it all and never ever be trapped in any identification.
So, out of this now, myriad of worlds of light, out of this now, a bang of that light into creation.
And that is now. And there is no time no space within it and yet within it are tears of experience. Either tears of experience yes, or tiers of experience. This is a tear t -i -e -r of experience but this is a very different kind of tier because this also has a lot tears this tier. I don't know if you know that? Misidentification. So then, the now is eternal and I am That.
It sounds crazy to say; to stay present as that, you’ll flower and you'll realize the flowering of the light of consciousness as one's true sel. But you will also flower into compassion, for the myriad of worlds that waken to the Self because this is what happens in worlds that definitely pass away, every world that's passing away and they're all passing away, evolves.
It's like the salmon returning to the river from where it was spawned. It all evolves. So that each realm begins to vibrate at a different pitch of realisation. And the strange thing about what I’ve just said is there is not one single world that is not present in each and every one of us, to be explored here and now only.
This is a funny thing that you'll have to find this yourself. Often you might not get any help with this at all. In fact, I don't think you will. There's nothing that's happening in your life that is not an initiation into a higher vibration. You are teaching yourself to transform the Cosmos directly as the Self. You are teaching yourself that.
You are teaching yourself as the Self to enter all the outflow without getting lost in image. You are teaching yourself how to remain being the radiance in all the worlds that you will enter until you can speak to each world as your Self and you can embrace each world as your Self. You’re a radiant, compassionate, full, brilliant Self. That's what's happening. It's eternal. That doesn't imply distance, space or time. It's now. That's what you're learning. And there's nothing that happens in your life that's not a teacher for that alone. Nothing.
Have more intimacy. Let people in your pain, in your dark spaces, let them in your bright spaces, let them in everything, enter together what this eternal now truly is,
You're not trying to get out of it, no, you're realizing what you already are within it, which just happens to be within you, so there's nowhere to go because you have no need to go anywhere other than I realise.
Where are you now? Now I'm saying as you get really honest with, where you are now, there is a different outpour, not because you've changed something simply because you're more intimate with what you are and you're more intimate with yourself.
The more intimate you are with yourself, some guy called it ‘know thyself,’ the more intimate you are with yourself and whatever its activity is, the more intimate you'll become with what you absolutely are and then without need of change everything changes and new levels of eternal experience simply begins part of your experience as that, but you have to discover that.
Remember what I said about the temples? Have you just been reading yourself on those temples? Did you write those codes, so that you would look at yourself in apparent streams of time to realize, "Oh, I Am That!"
I appear as human, we appear as human, but human is a hue of the whole Cosmos and Source encoded.
The potential of each human is to realise the stars, the Cosmos, the Self, the Source, the Beyond..
All forms of living Awareness with no beginning and end.
Be Like Water - Guided Meditation
So, let's close our eyes and just for a moment let your hands be really perceptive, however you want them, if you want them turned up, just let your hands be receptive and let your toes be receptive but we’re going to start with our hands simply because the hands have been made more conscious as consciousness. Also bring your attention to your heart.. and we’ll keep our eyes closed.. and notice how black it is regardless of how images appear in the mind, how black it is..
But let’s endeavour not to name anything. I might use a name just to point towards that, that has no name. Things like
I might use a name just to point towards that, that has no name. It's like form and all the forms we’ve got used to have no name.
They are not forms on their own, they are vibrating forms of Awareness. Forms of Awareness are not objects. 'Forms of Awareness' is Creation. Look at the Universe, it's not an object, it's Creation. It's not an object split into parts, it's flowing in the water of Awareness. Liken Awareness to water, feel like water, but see Awareness is, as it were, water.
So when I speak Im not speaking as someone to someone, but directly as Awareness.
And notice or find that Awareness is the looker, or pure seeing knowing. Become pure seeing knowing.
And notice how it simply becomes more and more subtle, just through the being knowing itself.
Feel a sensation, just feel with no name, be with no name, experience with no name. Very very subtle, knowing that used to know something, but now is literally knowing nothing. There's a fullness about it, a directness about it.
Become water. Now without trying to get anything let your hands move, let them lift. It's like water is knowing, feeling water. Awareness is knowing feeling awareness. It's not heading anywhere, but there's clearly deepening, expansion, aware.
Notice how the centre dissolves. Notice the breath and Awareness softens the water, softening the water, complete surrender of a centre.
The knower becomes knowingness, no centre, all the Deep.
Just for a moment imagine you are the womb of all life. You are able to see and know as Awareness streams of new life streaming, but in Awareness, going nowhere outside of Awareness, for Awareness is whole. Maybe like a baby in the womb with experience of new water of creation. No name, no subject/object. Pure creation
No knowledge, it simply means no time-space, no one to know, but knowing.. Water.. that water is endless water of life.
No body, no mind and yet pure knowing, knowing.. And from that water, light and colours come forth like electric colours full of life.. the kind of life that builds galaxies, the kind of life that builds star systems, the kind of life that builds worlds upon worlds open, formed in fullness and yet you remain water. Feel it.
And from the water comes shapes of that water, tones of that water, vibrations of that water, colours of that water moving, shifting, shaping, living forms of water, Awareness. Maybe one knew this as an infant everything was water. Flowing, breathing, merging and emerging, experiencing only water in its depths of vastness, and how water can flow inside its own water to anywhere in its ocean.. even be in more than one place in the water and experience each level uniquely and yet all is water.
Somewhere in the water of humanness this still is encoded in all beings. It’s no coincidence that this planet has a great deal of water and the body has a great deal of water. And notice how the water can shift into a shape that vibrates as the whole and yet is able to communicate with other shapes vibrating as the whole.. and yet still remain water.
Feel it however you want to feel it. Soft and yet alive, easy and yet wild without beginning or end. Water communicating with itself without exception. And notice how those shapes or islands of experience emerge from the water. See the emergence of that island emerging out of the water, that became a hue-man island out of the water, still water, an island.
Feel its shape, know its fluidity, know how it could see the stars and yet the stars were of its water. It could see others and yet others were of its water. No idea of any separateness at all, again become the water, leave the island alone, become the water. And notice how the island shifts and re-emerges as new water. Feel the connectedness with all other islands in the ocean.
How the possibility exists as water knowing the level of intelligence of the hue-man changing in a sphere that’s somehow, it’s called the brain but it’s a sphere of water. Two spheres, two seeming halves of one whole permeated with water that’s form and formless, all simply a pure idea. That’s all this can be, a pure idea of form and formless and yet water.
Feel that with the hands.. and feel this island of hue-man-ness in an instant become altogether new. And its newness comes from remembering it is water, remembering all islands in its ocean are water itself. Feel that vibration differently from what you might call my body, see your body as an island in the ocean of the Self which is what one already is.
Your whole body is tuned to the whole Cosmos all moving as water. See how you can see and know and experience the body realign in the shift of water as Awareness into a new understanding without beginning and end of what this water is as life.. if I am water, I am the life. See how your body now an emerged island of water knows exactly the same as the ocean, the mind exactly the same as the ocean, the nervous system exactly the same as the ocean.
Water transmitting new codes of the vast deep ocean, enabled as it were, to wash clean any levels of the island that can identify with subject or object, not as a problem, but as beautiful healing water. Realising I Am Now, what other name do I need? I Am Now. Realising on the human level now may be translated as ‘I am only this moment, I am this moment, I am the Now.’
Build this island called hue-man, radiate its tide. The images of success washed clean. There is no need of success for I am brilliant, I am clear, I am deep, I am vast, I am bright. See as water, one can experience the multidimensional levels of this island called hue-man, changed by the shift of Awareness as water. Seeming levels that seem to be stuck or locked are washed away. They are like ice crystals that the water simply meets and ice crystals melt and new water begins to live as new islands, new depths, new oceans, new life.
If I could even as this water pluck stars out of the deep sky by awareness and they simply come to this island to express the stars, water appears on the island of hue-man. All this is wild beyond the hue-man beautiful now, deep and real, nothing else is needed. It’s all here. I am That, that is here. Feel its fullness.
Watch it, how the island of hue-man is running water and what appears to be a head to a toe, from a toe to a head running to codes of deep higher reality, streaming the island And this island of water invites itself throughout the Universe and the world turns in to this island.
Notice how this island can speak and say; ‘I am in a new place in my own water, I am in a new place. I am the new place, not fashioned by knowledge of experience of time-space. I am in a new place, my own vast, no need of a centre, water.’
Sometimes I may even be in wonder of this open place that is absolutely new and watch the old mind in the intelligence of the humanness, dissolve to be united with this new place.
I ask you to turn your palms up, eyes closed and bring our hands very slowly, slowly up above our heads.. a wide open offering above our heads and notice as water, the water.
Slowly let that water, those hands in the same way fall down through what seems to be a fixed body. As its hands come down to a wide offering to Earth, the Earth is taking on the most high water. She opens to the most-high water. Go down in her, down in her, down in her.. down in her is the entirety of Creation that will ever be or ever have been. Down deep, down deep, down deep into her cavern womb of utter acceptance of what is.
Explore that and opening water. We have seen how water goes into the deep Earth, into the smallest cracks, into the tightest spots and becomes the shape of the water, Earth’s endless caverns and still remains water and yet takes the shape of her deep caves.
Long breath. Slowly come up.. do not miss one single level of her coming up as she gives herself back to the Beyond in celebration and the meeting of all waters that become the body. Way above the head, see how all intelligence opens and opens and opens. What was once a body is now an island, a cosmic egg. So many levels of living possibility. Bodies like a star stretched in the sky of water, in the sky of Earth.
Hear your own breath. Is it your breath or is it the breath of the ocean?
‘House of God’ above your head, remaining as water. And that ‘House of God’ is literally the ‘next’ for this island, the sky into the Earth and Earth into the sky, this is the ‘next’ in the island. Bring that through your mind to your heart. Let it shine, let it shine with the heart. Gently at the heart, let it shine. I shine! I’ve no need of any other island. I am self-effulgent, self-illumined, I recognise that I am the ocean.
Bring that down to your belly, hands on your belly. Recognise the ocean is Her.
A tender, sweet moment beyond all space that always shows itself to itself. Everything changes but it’s always water.
Islands shift but within the water. Awareness alive already complete. In the same way we learn in what appears to be a level of this island of hue-man, to shift our awareness, which shifts the colour, which shifts the island into a new place of the ocean directly known, directly felt, all I can say is I am That!
Now this island of humanness is alive with vast codes of higher reality.. that what I Am is brought into this level to bring alive from this island of hue-man-ness there is this prospect of potential.. And invisible worlds now vibe the hue-man-woman-life.
I appear as human, we appear as human, but human is a hue of the whole Cosmos and Source encoded. The potential of each human is to realise the stars, the Cosmos, the Self, the Source, the Beyond.. All forms of living awareness with no beginning and end.
But on this level of form, the ocean, the human, as the ocean, can bring up, bring down deeper higher realities and marry them in the heart centre.
This is how hue-man evolves, to experience fully this moment of life beyond the images stuck in the body-mind system until they're no longer stuck. But meet the ocean, melt and then in a moment re-crystallizes new life, only to melt again so re-crystallizes new life.
How do you see that in what appears to be your life? I would suggest each one of us has come to a place that we can say differently, able to do water, able to be the island, able to be human, able to be totally one with the Cosmos and the Divine.
Notice now, how different the sensation of the body is. The choosers still may be there. You only discover as Awareness to choose the same old safe habitual spots of the island, rather than transcend and include.
Where do you now see all this? In truth, did you ever leave yourself as a self, or is it all in The Self?
Sharings
B: Who would say they have touched on something new? Who would like to endeavour to express that somehow or other?
Q1: Throughout the time here, various questions that I’ve asked and various things that you’ve said, it’s reflecting on me that I have a feeling that I need to let go and know my capacity is far greater than that. So, the feeling of self-limitation, I’m letting go of that.
You also talked to me about surrender and again that is another phrase that is a word that’s saying ‘yes’. Rather than try and control everything and do everything and grow in a particular direction. Yesterday, I myself contemplated on water and how water flows and the power of water and the life of water and water throughout the Universe. So, for me today’s session was very, very relevant and enabled me to go deeper and let go and open more.
B: Yes. Notice I’m using water as an analogy for Awareness.. not as water.. for Awareness. But as water in the manifestation, you can see water will take the shape of anything and it won’t say ‘I’m not going to take that shape’, it takes that shape. Then it discovers what that shape is as water. But then water seeps into things. It seeps into it and not only takes the shape of it, it becomes it and then there’s a marriage of the water and the shape. Do you see what I mean?
And then if you notice how water then, as it were, naturally extracts itself from both the shape and the object and it ends up back in the sky, as it were. This is awareness no longer attached to an idea of having a centre wrapped around a particular sense perception experience or of a somebody. So, water does that. Water can be water, it can be ice, it can be steam. It even goes even further than just steam it can be invisible. So, that is an analogy to see how water can take the shape of something and yet seem to just be the shape of it but not actually be it. But then if you look at water it actually becomes what it’s taking the shape of.
And then if you if look at it again, then it also evaporates as if it’s carrying that information into the ethers as if there’s multidimensional marriages going on in the Universe but then there’s more than that. What’s more than that is, I Am the Self, I am actually beyond the Universe. It’s my game, my play.
Q2: I was saying doesn’t water, that essence create the form, shape the form?
B: It does both doesn’t it? You can have a look, you can see how all the elements are at play in what we believe is solid form but all the elements are very much in tact right now, but this is the shape of those. But who shapes it? Is it awareness that all this comes from and all this returns to? That’s what we really want to look at. So, you can free of the subject object nexus that makes you controllable from a limited perception of you, of your mind or from apparently others but others are simply a mirror of what you’re doing or what you’re becoming or what you’re knowing. There is nothing that is not already what one is. That’s another thing you have to look at.
Q3: That experience with the music when I was transcending up the layers today and it was like beautiful waterfalls of light and higher octaves. I see music in that way or music comes to us, through us in that way and there’s really, really high vibrational points out in the Universe and becomes light and becomes sound and the music comes from there. So, I see .. I wrote an album called ‘She’ once and today I remembered how that album came through. It was through the same visualisation that we had today when these just beautiful waterfalls of light and colour just coming down as a cascade of musical notes comes into orchestration.
B: But also, we know like scientifically or just personally, we can know that all colours are simply shone through the prism of light awareness. You know.. light is before the colour as it shines through the prism of ‘I’ it becomes everything, which to me it says ‘I must be the creator, I must be that, that creates’.
Q4: I find more that, what the exercise is, the spaciousness, when I close my eyes, I’m not my body, I’m just this vast spaciousness and with this awareness and it’s pulsing and yes just that awareness. And so, it’s only when I open my eyes it’s ‘oh I’m here’. So, when I was sitting with G and B it’s like well there’s two people here but there’s not two people here it’s just like talking to myself, aspects of the me-ness. So, just seeing that, not having the separation and saying ‘Oh yes this is just me reflecting back to me and I can express my form and they can express their form but it’s aspects of this spaciousness.
B: There’s something I would like to bring there. It’s around our conversation yesterday and it’s this.. there’s something in us, and a belief system in us where we believe we’re actually somebody with a centre, we seem to be able to expand in things like this, we seem to be able to do that, we seem to have knowing and we can experience higher frequencies, higher dimensions, higher lights, we can do that, those that can do that.
But then when it comes to something that seems to be a personalisation of something that we seem not to be able to do, or a part of us that doesn’t seem to perform the way we think it should perform, we never address that.. say it might be some relationship problem, we never address that directly as what we deeply are, we address it from the human perspective of space-time. We never actually go to awareness and discover what that is in our ocean.
So, often we come upon something in relationship, doesn’t matter what in relationship to, but it could be the masculine and feminine and we seem not to be able to enter awareness because something is us says ‘I don’t want to lose that, I don’t want to lose that’. But in awareness, if you go to awareness, you’ll see, ‘hold on a minute, I can’t lose anything and I don’t gain anything. The idea of loss and gain is absolutely absurd in What I Am. There’s no loss here, there’s no gain here. There’s nothing I can gain, at all. I am that, that I’m seeking for in every relationship and everything.’
So, the practice of surrender, the practice of intimate surrender to what you actually know is you being what you first are and not what you last are, as some great being put it. And then the answer comes.
So, yes we can reflect to each other but can we solve the dilemma of current relationships, can we solve any dilemma in the ocean it came out of? Is that the truth? Then it means I must not become a someone for that to dissolve, which means to resolve in my own awareness. Never have I been somebody, never has there been another, never have I not been what I deeply am, never! That's the illusion. You follow what I'm saying?
Now I suggest when you come back to that because let’s just called it like a pyramid, you come back to that and that streams everything you need to know from the highest vibration right down to, right down to form. But there's something with form we have to understand and we have to see that form forms and then disappears. You have to understand that it keeps passing away. Form forms and disappears yes?
So, the more you attach to density, the more you’re going to have difficulty with your sense of ‘I’ and other. The more you attach to density, yes? You have to realize this is density but it comes out of the ocean. So, you have to return to the ocean for this to redissolve, resolve in awareness. All resolves only in awareness, not in a body, not in a mind, not in some complicated idea of who you are. It resolves that.. you understand resolve? The resolve is in awareness, not in your skins, not in your layers, not there. You tried it, you tried it, you tried it, it doesn't work. The resolve is in what you deeply are, that's where the resolve is.
Q5: It's like it's going into all the nooks and crannies and I'm really enjoying that freedom of just doing the movements of where the body wanted to go and it's definitely.. what's new is just it coming right down, really right down in a really new place, which I’m knowing I’ve resisted that downness. So, that’s what was coming through. So, I just want to get really low now on the floor. It just feels really good.
B: Yes, because ‘right down’ is let’s say all the conditional codes still reside in hidden places but you have to get down to them. But you can only really get down to them if, I suggest, you’ve got deep enough, you’ve got deep enough while going high. Otherwise, you’ll come down and you go ‘oh no, no, no, I can’t do this’, whoop!. So, you’ll stay up here. So, this, will definitely disappear as something that’s most high as you come down. But it always remains what it is, pure living awareness. But it seems to get wrapped up in identification, patterns, which are, as it were, covering what you really are.
You’re uncovering yourself in the body. So, you’ve got to get right down into her and whatever you have to touch on, that can only resolve in you as awareness. It can’t resolve in any ideas of what you are as a man or a woman. Oh, it went dead silent then. That’s also an idea.
Everything only resolves in awareness, not in a man or a woman. It resolves in awareness.
But somebody tell me ‘oh you'll be a man’. I've been like no, no you need to check it out. Both woman and man, both the masculine and feminine is all coming out of awareness so go there. So, that's good to hear you're getting down, getting down.
Q6: Yes. The thing that opened intense moments I would say is the you mentioned this a couple of times on this retreat but the freedom to move anywhere, a freedom of awareness to flow, you know like water. And then you were just talking about.. because it's not free in condition.. like that’s actually kind of a definition of conditions and then not exactly free if to meet something but this is free but it's free in awareness.
So, in other words, have that be primary, have that, which is what you were just saying. That's that that moment of freedom opened up..
B: The thing is, although what I'm going to say is not correct but I'm going to say it; can one then operate or function from what one discovered is already free, can one function or operate from what is already free, or does the function and operating of that, that is already free exclude you as an identity? It’s functioning operating. You’ve just got to realise it. It’s functioning and operating already. There’s the stars, there’s the Cosmos, there’s everything. It’s already functioning and operating. So, it’s here, nowhere else, it’s here! It’s not in some deep space, it’s always here. This is here.
So, to live that, it’s not only realised inherent freedom but it’s no suffering. There’s no suffering. Suffering is the belief that you need all this.. No!.. you don’t need all this. This is what one is expressed to enjoy, to be in, but without leaving what you already are. Do you see what I mean?
So, it’s all yours but you can’t own it because then it becomes a complicated mass-ness mentally, emotionally, psychologically and everything else possible. But it is all yours, but it disappears. What doesn’t is What You Are. Check it out. No matter where you go, What You Are always remains.. deep dreamless sleep, deep meditation, always remains.. Awareness.
And yet Awareness can travel into its own solar system and find more of What It Is as Awareness and even like in Astrology, on my maps I can find on my map as you saw, I can point it up from the Earth and it brings out a star system and it’s like; well, you’re doing that, you’re the one that’s joining those stars together. That whole cosmic field that’s displaying another galaxy, that’s your ‘next’. You look at a galaxy, that’s already you looking back at you. We don't seem to be able to get that in because our story on the earth has been so unappointing to you, not being the power of it all, but you are. So, when you look at the stars and you might go; ah, look at that's joined together, that's a whole cosmic body of You.
And that landing here, is not going to make you, as it were, ‘I’m a cosmic body’ although you might pretend that you might do that, but it makes you more relaxed, more, more sublimely real, more open, more able to directly participate in everybody's life because there's something that's landed in you that's the higher, deeper You. Do you see what I mean? So, choices, you might not choose anymore. You might not have to choose. It's just here, here, here. It might be an occasional choice. It just happens. It's happening.
Yes. Any other, anything else that you would like to share?
Q6: Well, the running into the, I ran into the core condition of, the core contraction of not free, not free to go.
B: I'd like to go somewhere with you and I'm not going to tell you where I'm going to go. Are you okay with that? Or you can say, no, tell me where you're going to go before you.. What do you think? What do you think? Okay, I'm going to go into, I'm going to go into your, your family energetic field.
Yeah. Your brother is in the process of dying. I don’t know if any of you know this but there’s nobody in this room that’s not definitely dying on a physical level. You need to acknowledge that. But what’s really dying is, on this apparent physical dying, is everything that you’re not, so, it can be filled up with more of What You Are. Because this form can only, as it were, vibe and hold a limited amount of What You Are.
But on this planet, you’ve got star systems. You might see a star system but that was a star system you were just looking at as a body, as a friend. And sometimes you might have a friend or somebody you look at and for you it’s a star system and then they’re drinking double-shot lattes. It just could be a moment that the star is shining through that person and two stars are having a conversation. Even God levels having a conversation. Just stay with that for a moment.
Well, if you have a family, an apparent family, you are a constellation, a star system. That’s what thou art, that’s what you are. Beyond that of course it all funnels down to source code but that source code has come out as a star system and your brother and your mother and you at some point or other, are returning to that star system. And you’re going to know what you actuated whilst that star system was expressing as a family circle. Really. Now you can do that now.
Like for instance, I didn’t budge and it's not that I'm proud of this. I didn't budge a centimetre when I heard my mum was dying. Not a centimetre. And she was, you know, here she is. Yeah. Here, you know, literally, she thinks I might still need that to know her. But she just said to myself and my sister, don't come back, don't, don't, I’m okay. I'm not going to go anywhere. I'm going to miss, don't come. But my sister was like, she was with me in New Zealand. I must go and see mum's dying. She doesn't need you. She's already here.
Check it out. She's already here. In fact, if you die before you die, you're in a place where all your star system returns to or even more. So, something more going on here than most people will ever enter. You'll get called New Agey or whatever you get, maybe. So, you can be, and I would suggest you already are, in the place where your brother will come to. You don’t need to answer this, recognise it. Recognise it.
So, you may or may not go and sit by his side, you may or may not but you’re already holding his hand in in another place. Absolutely, clearly. You’re already holding his hand in another place. And there may be, when you pass away, there may be someone in your family holding your hand or not. But I'll tell you with this, everyone in this room is going to hold your hand. Everyone in this room is going to hold everyone's hand. And just say, ‘come’, done. You're in a new place. Die now. Die now.
Then you won't make choices limited to a body mind. You literally change the Cosmos. That's what you're doing. You're changing the Cosmos. It looks to your little mind that you're not, but you are. You're all star-seeds. Right? Or you're just fodder for limitation. You're all star-seeds. So, you're holding your brother's hand, I would suggest already. In fact, now we've invoked this in this room, there's nobody in this room that's not holding space for your brother to pass into the beauty and wonder of what he is. No distance of that either.
So, it's kind of like that. And each and every one of us is going to have to go beyond our family star system to realize the one family that is cosmic and universal. It all comes out the heart of the ocean of awareness, which is why we did what we did today. There's nobody that is not family. Nobody.
B: We have time for a form practice. Yes, we do. There’s somebody here who would like to share their experience.
Q7: In that field, I felt a lot of like.. so it was like being loosened up and in that a lot of oldness or old images or old just dissolved. So, at the same time I want to dissolve resolve.. so it was a two way movement. I guess there was a lot of dissolvement and at the same time deeper I could say like blackness in deeper forms that I was a bit not afraid of, but you know, like what is this? Not what is it, but so it was a two-way movement.
B: Before you go on, just so we don't lose it. When there's fear, which we all know it's false evidence appearing unreal, that's a fragment of the self. That's not you. That’s a level that you’ve not yet met in what appears your humanoid. You haven't met that level. But that fear is not yours as mine. It's collective. That's the collective fear of the loss of anything, whether it's a thought, a feeling, a body, a mind, a thing. That's the collective idea that there's loss here or gain here. There's no loss here. There's no gain here. There's only God here.
That's what's really here. The one I truly am is already here. So, on this level where this comes down, and as it were, it seems like the pyramid to come, this level where the highest light and frequency without fragmentation, without fragmentation or even distortion comes, and the one becomes many without distortion.
Distortion, the distortion, which is not distortion, is in the lack of the capacity of the terrestrial mind which is human for us to comprehend the wonder and greatness of it all. But only the soul can marvel at the wonder and greatness of it all, not the mind. But the soul must marvel at it all, and be it all, and then mind naturally changes. Mind changes when soul recognises itself or is the Self. Soul is the same word as saying being. Being and soul is the same thing.
So, then within this multi-dimensional sphere, which is really on this level it becomes holographic, and if you have a look there's kinds of transparencies about the levels of you. You might notice that a level of you comes over here, and a level of you is over here, I don't know if any of you, you know if you've seen shots, if you've ever taken pictures, and you can now on iPhone, you can now separate the images, the layers. Well, that's what this is, this is layered.
So, as it comes down here on this level of mind, from which sense perception seems to appear, because it's an appearance, it's not solid, it feels to be solid only for this level, because otherwise manifestation wouldn't serve the point of light. This manifestation serves the point of light which is there is not one level of light no matter how dense, is not the Self. It’s all the Self.
So then, in the terrestrial mind, here, the terrestrial mind has been created to jigsaw puzzle together. Do you see what I mean? And I would say from.. I can’t give it a date. So, somehow like all these apparent pebbles on this beach, somehow, you’re supplying information of a life lived, fully and completely or partially. That’s these pebbles here. And they are the cells that are vibrating in the human.
So, a baby doesn’t come in with any of this. A baby’s cells vibrate on a divine cosmic level, they don’t vibrate at a conditional level later on. That comes into a child when you see that child scream and yell when it says “I don’t want this, I don’t want this”. It means; I don’t want to come into this conditional realm but it knows it has to as all this is consciousness.
So, that level of the mind where the fear arises, discover where it is awareness. It will come and often it’s reflected in the field through how you or another relates to you.. your Mum, your Dad, your friend, the guy in the door, it comes back to you and that's the level that you're enlightening from, that, that you know you are. But it’s not your fear. It’s false evidence appearing real in the cell of humanity, big time at the moment.
I don't know if you know this big, because we must, we must see all these images that we've made of ourselves. See? You’re beyond image. So, just discover that level that you're dropping down into and make it conscious. That's what's happening.
It's definitely not your fear. It just appears to be your fear. You've got to know yourself to know you have no fear. You're not born and you don't die. It’s attachment to the idea that you’re a body-mind that makes you fear. When you realise this, the body-mind is a gorgeous power! Absolutely a gorgeous power. So, although it appears to be your fear, it appears to be all our fear. It's actually non-personal. Making any sense?
And on a high higher, let's call it on a fourth dimension of plane, fear will also be extra-terrestrial.
Q7: What do you mean by extra-terrestrial?
B: I mean other levels of you are not the appearance of you here and now. Other levels of you are participating in the Universe or the Cosmos. Other levels of you are appearing as what might be called aliens. Other levels of you. And other levels of you are gods. And another level-less level of you is the Self. And more than that. See what I mean?
This is a uni-verse. A song of the one and the whole. So, you don't have to go to fourth or fifth dimension to be what you are. I'm trying to point towards it as, you bring that level down by recognising. You recognise a fifth dimensional consciousness which is oneness. Recognise it but then be it. You have to recognise it. You're not going somewhere. You are, as it were, recognizing it in the in the ocean that you already are.
But then you might experience it and to your mind it might look like you're going somewhere. But this is what is what's so wonderful about this universal hologram. You as the Self can travel anywhere within the dream of Creation and you can change anywhere in the dream of creation by being pure light awareness. But you won't need to change it. It's just that it changes because of your frequency. Same here. Things change here because of the frequency, frequency that you remain whole and true to what you deeply are and leave density alone. In other words, it's not wrong, but just don't identify with it.
Q8: Can I just come in? Something just dropped as you said that.
B: Sure.
Q8: That the frequency the term means the frequency and more frequently we acknowledge who we are..
B: Not implying time-space movement.
Q8: Hmm?
B: Not implying time -space movement. Not frequent as in backwards and forth, but frequent as in acknowledging, acknowledging the frequency of ‘now’, which is whole which is real which is already that, that I am. How much you stay as that until you don't have to say that because I Am That.
And rather like a moth to a flame, all the parts of small self, head to burn in the light of self-realization. There's nobody in this room that's not going through that. Whatever's going on in your life that the moth’s flying into the holy flame of You and that's resolution. You're collecting all the parts since you appeared to have birth.
But there's a bigger picture in that you're collecting all the parts of the whole cosmology and realizing that you're the Self that's illuminating all of this creation because you created it.. after all you’re God.
