A day by day collection of gems and highlights from the five-day retreat in New Zealand - December 2017  

 

Opening Session

"Our self, whilst we have this body-mind, becomes the place, the theatre, the possibility of integrating the Calling whilst realising what I Am, this 'I' that is listening to these words now. However life is, everything is in place for a profound realisation of what you are, even beyond your heart."

"We only hold each other as separate because we believe our own pain is special and different from everybody else's but actually we are pure beings, transforming this level of reality by awakening AS what we are, within it. Endless time have 'I', this 'I' that is listening  to these words now been evolving this level of reality." 

"Wherever you are deeper streams of your Love, deeper streams of your Being, greater depth of what you are is the one constant that is present."

"When you move the deep Knowing belonging to the miracle of experiencing deep form as you, the unthinkable begins to be known, begins to manifest, not for you as a self, but as what you have always been, eternal Love." 

"Your difficulty lies in the belief that the past can tell you who you are and the future is going to make you what you are. That is not the truth. You see, it is all wonderful revelation, revealing you to you, with everyone you meet. You begin to know, taste and realise that you are already Love."

“Nothing can take place, nothing can replace the Beloved. Nothing.
No one. Anything whatsoever. Nothing can replace the Beloved.
Love the Beloved, you will realise the Beloved.
Love the Beloved and you will realise the Beloved is the only One that is here.
Then all your relationships begin to move as the Beloved.”

"The invitation to realise the Source as one's Real Self is everywhere."

 

One Magnificent Earth Heart

You have come to grace this earth with what you are, you have come to grace everyone that you have ever known with what you are. You have come this week to meet what you believed you couldn't meet. You have come completely by grace to move to the deeper level that is calling and to make it real. Truly you can live this for the rest of eternity.

In our being together, in our sharing together, we will see that we are not thirty brains, we are one magnificent earth brain, one magnificent earth heart, one universal mind, one universal heart and we all have deep, deep communion, already. We are not reading each other's self because there is none, we are reading the Beloved as the Beloved together. 

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Drop all the wonderful self-ideas that you need pain, struggle and distress, that you must have it. You don't actually need anything, because deeply you are already whole. Just tenderly reach a little deeper, a little deeper, a little deeper.  In our conversations together reach a little deeper, a little deeper, a little deeper... You will begin to perceive so much more freshly,cleanly. Read the levels as Awareness, as Love. Read them!

 

All In An Instant

You are profound silence, light moving, streaming through the body-mind up from deeper levels. You are streaming up and then you are going into the sense of 'I', the sense of self and person and all the relatedness around that - all in an instant. This is how you can realise the universe is your greater body. Be open to deeply seeing what is actually taking place. Deeply see it!

The tendency of Awareness is to identify with the first familiar pattern. We choose it and the world teaches us to and yet we created the world - not the earth, the earth came out of what we are. We superimposed the pattern of the world onto the pristine earth that is here to make possible human forms of divinity.

 

You Are Called Way Way Beyond

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You realise that being here ruins how you expect your life to continue? It ruins your life from how you perceive through your sense of self. What I hope to bring about together is a deeper living way. We could be anywhere together, anywhere at all: in town, on the beach,  in the living room or in this marquee and wherever you are, deeper streams of your love, deeper streams of your being, greater depth of what you are is the one constant that is present.

We are not awakening to what most people believe they are awakening to. Your mind is awakening to YOU who is Awareness knowing, seeing NOW- without name, form or identity, who moves through all names, all forms and all identities. That is truly what is present.

Awareness, the one who is listening to these words now (including the speaker), tends to  identify with the content of mind, which means the content of life but in truth Life has no content. Living does.  Living has lots of content but Life has no content. What Life has is what you are. Life is streaming with what you are. Life is utter contentment and that is what YOU are. 

We have all come together because were called by the same one we are. You could not be in this room or be with an apparent other and talk so profoundly, simply,  tenderly or terribly about the Beloved and not be called. We are together because we are called. Do you recognise this?  Do you recognise you are called way beyond how you relate to who you believe you are?  Way beyond. Way way beyond!  Do you see and know you hear? You know you hear.  

We are the Hearing knowing and the Knowing hearing, the Seeing seeing. Recognise how beautifully deeply you know without single use of self, a single use of the brain, a single use of the world. Nothing needed, no thought, no feeling needed. We could say together: 'I know'.

Knowing, if who you are Awareness is available, takes you immediately into That that you know, which is That that you are. Nothing is needed to grasp this. That that is calling is the one you are with no self, no body, no mind, no brain, no thing. Very gently one begins to perceive finely, a fineness is known. Even the birdsong is pointing the way. 

Notice how that fineness is streaming this moment of forming. Now Awareness is knowing beyond, knowing fineness, knowing forming and knowing all this moving up into form, which in truth is formless. No object in it, no objective. Still pure Knowing. Somehow you are noticing that the forming has the deep in it. The deep is already moving as forming and there is still no one there. You can come right to the surface. It is as if you have moved from deep dreamless sleep, moved from unimaginable depth up into a surface level of reality. Reality being the radiance of the deep, the one who is listening to these words now. Now there is a body made of the deep. It still doesn't have a self as yet, it is sweet innocence like a baby. Goldenness waiting to integrate up into the movement of form as you and I. And yet you and I, the one who is listening, including the speaker IS this. 

So, we all sit together because the deep is calling to be realised - to realise That that I Am and to move knowingly, to perceive so deeply that the old mind falls away in the light of you belonging to the deep calling. You long so much to realise deeply what you are. You also long to meet that with others. Even though in the deep you know there are no others, you long to stream it together, to be it together, to realise it increasingly deeper. You also know that it costs you everything you have ever believed in of a conditional nature. We know that it cost us to realise that the Beloved is speaking, the Beloved is seeing, the Beloved is hearing, the Beloved loves the Beloved and it is the one listening to these words.

When you move the deep Knowing, belonging to the miracle of experiencing the deep form as you, the unthinkable begins to be known, begins to manifest, not for you as a self, but as what you have always been, eternal Love. The invitation to realise the Source as one's real Self is everywhere. Most people's difficulty is the belief that the past can tell you who you are and the future is going to make you what you are. That is not the truth. You see it is all wonderful revelation, revealing you to you, with everyone you meet. We begin to know, taste and realise that we are already Love. 

Listen to B speak this passage

 

Your Cup Is Being Emptied

Your Calling is deep and real. You love that much, you love the Beloved, the Truth, that much that your cup is being emptied so that more of what you are can be poured in. There are many ways to say this and they are all displayed in your life and all the resistance in your life is the persistence that you are a somebody, whereas truly you are a wonderful, wonderful nobody.


Day 1

“Home is being true to the deepest you realise.”

"Awareness you are in your own self-creation of the universe. Constantly.
Truly a movement of Love." 

"Daily life here in this human form gives us an immense opportunity to realise what I Am. "

"Your daily life is your moment to moment opportunity to realise what you are more deeply and utterly and watch the miracle of your belonging to that come all the way up to the surface. In this your life gets reconfigured by the deeper You. "

"If one is to truly awaken, every challenge that seems to be in the outside is your inside calling you to recognise it and be one with it all the way up to the surface."

"Patterns only move when Awareness participates within the pattern as its belief that the pattern is what It is." 

"There are endless levels of the radiance 'I Am' that I am in-streaming and moving. I occupy them all equally without any separation. I am one total movement. To me daily life here in this human form gives us an immense opportunity to realise what I Am. "

"What is your self? Your self is you in forms of conditionality that you are holding together as if you are a someone. That is your self,  small self we're talking about. What it really is, is an amazing and constant opportunity to be the cup that the Real You, The Self pours into, direct.
Your heart will be all different, your mind will be all different, your life will be all different." 

"If you are awakening but you want to keep your life the  same, you are in for a bit of a struggle."  

 

Undo Your Obsession

Undo your obsession with believing you have a beginning and an end. Undo it. Be the flow of openness. Then all those levels that you meet from the deeper heart opening actually call you to be deeply deeply true. You make a connection with what you are first in the deep. Now there is no challenge for you. Those levels that might cause you disturbance, that are distasteful to you are pointing to where they want to come home to You, direct. 


Let Your Openness Find Its Wonderful Way

Humans have tension they have no idea that they are giving their attention or their energy to. When you open, which is a state of Love, you will not find tension there. I could pour water on the ground and it would find its wonderful way. In the same way, let your openness find its wonderful way.

Can you enjoy where you are? The mind says where you are is in a garden, in this marquee,  with these people. The mind or the self will give you the information that you are constantly referring 'You' with . It gives you the information you refer to in terms of what you are and where you are. This is in fact the mind's purpose, to reflect to you where you are in what you are and it will also work out what that is through where you have been, constantly recycling memory to know where you are in what you are. The mind will tell you: "I am a man a woman, a human, a this or that, an electrician etc. " which are all wonderful vehicles of a far greater movement and sourcing. 

The question is can we be in life and move without a pattern? It is rather like when we look at the weather forecast and it tells us: "the pattern for the next three days is this and then comes another pattern and then another."  We do exactly the same in our lives, we have long range comfortable forecasts and when the forecast says that a particular pattern front is imminent we get the umbrella of self. But is any pattern permanent? What is permanent amongst this moment?  What is total, what is Source?  What gives all this reality? Can we allow fear and not judge it? Can we allow self, limited or otherwise, and not judge it? Can we see without a pattern? Can we begin to see that patterns only move when Awareness participates within the pattern as its belief that the pattern is what It is. 

In truth, there are endless levels of the radiance 'I Am' that I am in-streaming and moving and I occupy them all equally without any separation. I am one total movement. To me daily life here in this human form gives us an immense opportunity to realise what I Am. Please, the speaker on the chair is not what 'I Am'. Keep your 'I' in your own heart as we share this love together. 

As you start to stabilise in the deeper levels of Knowing there is a brightness about it, a deeper realness.  But once you come up into a sense of self you are going to be knowing yourself like you have never known yourself before. The belief was that you are a solid woman, a solid man made up of different parts of likes and dislikes. Patterns that you have added to you, patterns of your own making. 

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Where I am coming from, I am saying that you are not actually taking anything on from your parents' parents.  I am saying you are 'the lot', right from the beginning you are your parents' parents' parents. You are your ancestry. Don't you want to be that vast? There is nothing grandiose about it but there is a beautiful soft magnificence that is sublimely innocent and real. No one passed any patterns down to anyone. Awareness, you are in your own self-creation of the universe. Constantly. Truly, a movement of Love. 

If one is to truly awaken, every challenge that seems to be in the outside is your inside calling you to recognise it and be one with it all the way up to the surface. Then there is transfiguration in the nervous system, in the body mind and a deeper level of the brain activates.

The brain is a magnificent instrument of Love. The deeper level of the brain can only open to the deeper level of your calling, otherwise it would be too much for your sense of self. There is an emergency cut off system, because that energy would be too much for how you have partitioned your self, where really you are the wholeness. 

Your daily life is your moment to moment opportunity to realise what you are more deeply and utterly and watch the miracle of your belonging to that come all the way up to the surface. In this your life gets reconfigured by the deeper You. 

You have to understand that the way that Awareness has put the human together cannot understand this. Your self cannot understand this, therefore it won't want anything to do with this. What is your self? Your self is you in forms of conditionality that you are holding together as if you are a someone. That is your self,  small self we're talking about. What it really is, is an amazing and constant opportunity to be the cup that the Real You, The Self pours into, direct. Your heart will be all different, your mind will be all different and be clear about this, your life will be all different.

If you are awakening but you want to keep your life the same, you are in for a bit of a struggle. Because in realising deeper your life will definitely change in terms of how you relate to what you are and in terms of what comes towards you to show you how rooted you are in the deeper realisation of what you are. Every human opportunity is a reflection of what you are rooted in. The more you are rooted into the deeper levels of you whilst still holding a relationship to your body-mind self as other, we suffer and say we're confused. because as you realise deeper the pressure of the New, making known to You where your self is holding on, will be enormous. In fact it can cause mental, emotional and physical disease, human relatedness disease. We see this dis-ease on the planet. 

When you belong to what you are awakening to, You who is aware of this moment now, and you relate to it with all that you are and all that you have then all that you have now belongs to all that you are. That is how it transforms and you will be knowing every level of opportunity, every level that is missed, every level that is taken and claimed and every level of every level that is moving and transforming in what you are as Reality. In this way, everything that shows up in your life, everything without exception is allowed space in your sense of self, person, body,  mind  heart and life totally.  

What most of us do on the surface is that we engage life and each other as living. We engage it with all the patterns that have been here since the beginning of time. We are looking for Freedom , which is our Love but we are engaging with patterns that have nothing to do with what we are.

When you can stand in a pattern as being true to the deep,  the pattern shifts because you are no longer belonging to it. You are not making it a problem and it shifts and shapes the new reality into deeper forming of the light you are now realising as you. This can wonderfully happen inside, between two people and even between a whole planetary consciousness...

What is really amazing and often not seen is that within moments of utter despair, right there is the possibility of an immense power of Love that opens your mind,  your heart and your body to what you have been visiting in deep dreamless sleep and what you visit when you are true to the moment. A power that is ready for forming as You.    


Day 2

"Knowing isn't limited to knowing a thing. It is simply knowing nothing. Knowing your Knowing doesn't need a content. Knowing 'I am Knowing' is your infinite nature." 

"The earth is endlessly deeper than what you see in sense perception."

“The Practice of The Form is going into the subconscious, going into the unconscious and undoing the patterns before they come up to the surface.”

 

You Are Not A Polarised Entity

When you begin to awaken you realise how you have individuated your bodily, emotional and mental experience from the past. Because your body is a pure receiver of what you believe is real. You are receiving through the core of your brain, the pineal gland, which one could say is your cosmic aerial. What you are as Awareness are telling the brain the reality you want to pick up and manifest.

The moment you choose, as if there is a good and bad, right and wrong up and down, your brain exists as a polarised entity. Then you become that polarised entity but you are not an entity, you are the power in and beyond the universe. You are Love, golden - not you as a person, a self.  You in Being are 'good as gold' as they say here in New Zealand, because you are the One Good.

 

Move What You Awaken To

Deeper reality is not only present but is being realised, not to be lived in some future point but to be Now moving. So when you realise deeper reality, move what you awaken to, belong to it. You will disappear into it and you will awaken AS that reality in a living embodiment. 

 

Total Embodiment  

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Pure Mind glows like a vast egg around the whole body. Some realisers have been painted as having realisation like a halo only around the head but it should be all encompassing. I am not saying those realisers, such as Jesus were limited, I am saying to whoever painted the halo: “Hey, lower! “

It is a total embodiment not just 'up there'. The mind is fully illumined with the Source itself as the one who is listening to these words now and the whole embodiment is a movement of the deep, coming out of the black.  Pure Awareness, moving bursting into light the Self and manifesting reality in a multidimensional splendour and it is here right now as apparent you and I. You can directly experience the shift of Awareness, the shift of Consciousness. Deeper dimensions made real in your experience within and as the body - same One, not two. 

 

Pure Poetry

To me life is pure poetry or pure music or pure Love and all that moves is the creative imagination of the One that is listening to these words now. Here, on this seemingly surface level of the One, the One appears as the many. The many are the One, make no mistake about that, and the many can find the One as the One that they are amongst the many. If you go deeper though you are only the One and that is true aloneness. It is your first form. 

 

In One Breath

Even day is night. You just close your eyes and there it is. To me, "Nite, nite" means black, black - the return to nothing. Instead of hello, you could say: "Light light", which means the creative force is what you are in. "Nite nite, light light!" - that is what is and they move together. You are nothing and everything in one breath. 

 

No One And Nobody

In deep dreamless sleep you are no one and nobody, beautifully so, and when you wake up in the morning you first individualise what nothing is.

 

Those Who Come

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My knowledge is that those that come - to 'him' (B) have prepared the ground of their life to be more than the conditional sense of self. Otherwise you could not be here with this one. It would be too much for how you have put your sense of self together. By the way, it will feel like that at times. I suggest that this is what you come into: to flow more of the deeper realisation and to make real in your body what you are realising.

You have to understand that your life of how you have lived it so far is at an end.  Only then are there new beginnings. All that you will ever meet is the shadow of old form, whilst you are directly meeting the light forming. You are individualising in this moment, your ability to be the same One as you address another and unite with each and every soul in wholeness for they are the same One, evolving every level of the universe without beginning or end.

This is the pouring of Love. Infinity in a moment of quantum finiteness called 'I' and how that moment of quantum finiteness can meet another exactly in the same place and realise Oneness is total already. I am suggesting that the human brain will eventually melt together and become one, because what you are is rebirthing this moment as you truly awaken and you let go of the fear in the belief that you are limited. You do not have a beginning or end. You  are already radiant Freedom. All this is just one wonderful level of YOU. 


Day 3

"In truth there is no existence without the light of the Self and its movement bringing itself home to realise what it is. It is the one constant in the universe." 

"Unveil yourself Lord. Unveil yourself, 
so my eyes can only see you and my heart can only know you.
Unveil yourself Lord.
I so long to see and know you. 
Through seeing and knowing you
I know who I am and
I know my life is You.
Unveil yourself most High, most deep One
Even if you destroy me, unveil You to my eyes. 
I long for my life to be yours..."

 

You Are being Weaned Off Forms Of Past Identification

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If you are awakening, you are being weaned off of the need for manifest forms to tell you who you are. Thought is a manifest form, feeling is a manifest form, birdsong is, your body is, your spoken word is a manifest form.  So many manifest forms!  In awakening you are awakening to relate direct to your Being and to the Self. In truth there is no existence without the light of the Self and its movement bringing itself home to realise what it is. It is the one constant in the universe. 

This is why certain traditions beat a drum. It is the rhythm in the universe, it is the rhythm in your heart. It is the rhythm in your breath. You have taught your mind, your brain to constantly register events and then instantly individuate them as something that is happening to a someone, This then gets stored and it is called the subconscious. In awakening the subconscious opens up its forms but the deep also opens up its forms. There is a trade between your illusory forms, in other words they pass away, and your true form, the form of your Being, which is greater reality profoundly real and deep and does not pass away.

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They trade places. This is what the movement of Infinity truly is, until both circles are realised as the one movement, the movement of the deep,  the movement of a profound form which is light, which manifests the cosmos. This is really the case already. The body is a map or a microcosm of this and instantly in the same moment that it manifests it returns. That is the heartbeat. 

When you awaken, you awaken to the finer forms of your Being, which are unseen forms or veiled forms. Veiled forms of light or Being.  This movement, which is not a process in what you are but is a process at the level of self and  person is a calling to unveil your Being to your Awareness that is identified with illusory forms. Immediate and direct.  Prior to awakening human beings’ tendency is to read past form. We ascribe time to this but basically it is all past form. Time is past form. Present form or the form of your Being is Now,  it has no past or measurement.

When you awaken you are being weaned off of identification with all past form. Sometimes in the body you will be feeling terrible, mentally, emotionally you can feel awful, in fact devastated. You are undoing your attachment to illusory forms, forms that are passing away. You have to discover this, you who is aware, who is listening to these words now. 

You begin to listen deeper in the beyond, in true form or realms of Being.  You are discerning illusory forms of identification falling away whilst you are awakening to profounder levels of pure form, which is Being. This is what life is about. You begin to live in the beyond.

Your old way of relating to form mentally, emotionally and physically begins to dwindle or fade. It appears to be difficult to be weaned off of this, difficult for a person, but Awareness is being weaned off of the person, the image and is being reacquainted, as Awareness  with deeper realms of Being. Realms unseen but not unknowable. Within this movement of being weaned off of form, our Calling gets more profound and our willingness to deeply belong to that Calling begins to build. In many ways awakening is a call to prayer. 

Listen to B speak this piece...

 

 

When we say "Yes, but..."...

The 'yes-but' -  the 'yes' is Self knowledge and the 'but' is small-self knowledge. You have not yet perceived the speed by which you transcend the 'but' and enter the 'yes' and move from the 'yes' to the 'but'; it's so fast... it's Now! 

 

Now Is The Opportunity To Fully Open

Right Now Awareness has the opportunity to fully open and in its opening fully open the body and the unseen levels of the body. This is what relaxation brings about, relaxation of Awareness opens deeper levels that are now available to you in the beyond and in your body. With what you are in  touch with right now, you can discern what level of form you are on,  you can discern the development of self and person from direct aware Knowing and Awareness can also discern, as you who knows it knows, not things but Knowing itself.  You know you know. Add anything to that and you begin to invest in forms once again, in terms of seen and known historical forms. 

In many ways you are called to remain open, no matter what moves through that openness and discern deeply from the deeper levels of your Being whilst old ways of knowing will surface on their way home through the 'I'.


Day 4

"Life gives you the opportunity to know the deep deeply and then it forms. Then you really know you are a divine Creator pouring out of the spaciousness and manifesting what you are in the deep." 

"Love is the opening in which the outpouring Love forms the universe and it is 'I' listening to these words now." 

 
A Vast Space of Love

Anything in time or space cannot have any value for what you are to move in. You cannot move in it. You won't be known. You won't be seen.  You won't be knowing what you are - direct.

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Patterns are made in and of time. If you identify with a pattern you then are in and of time and you have a body of time. Running with that body of time within that pattern is a feeling-sense hijacked by time, an intelligence hijacked by time, experience hijacked by time. This is what a pattern is. You will only ever identify with patterns if you still believe you exist in time and not as pure knowing Awareness who on this level has form.

Love does not exist in space, time, past or future. Love doesn't exist, doesn't move in any of that. You have been looking for Love in that, as that and this is why you cannot find it. It is not there, wrapped up in the belief that you can be Love tomorrow or wrapped in the belief that you were Love last week or thirty years ago when you had your first awakening. 

If you had awakening thirty years ago and you knew Love, you opened beyond space and time and you came into what you already are, which is Love. Then we see that what we have done with Love is that we have made Love about space and time, about a particular person in duality (I and someone else) and we have made Love about an emotion linked to a thought, linked to events in the past that I thought were Love. So we're always held in this idea of past in the hope that we get that love again in the future wrapped around a space-time body that is an utter illusion. 

And yet all this is appearing in a vast space of Love - it is 'I' listening to these words now. This is why when one has a deeper realisation, one falls into one's opening, one's own opening. You have opened. Life will conspire to open you, sometimes crack you open, burn you open, push you open or you live as openness in everything. Nonetheless opening is what you are inside that opening. The shell is the appearance of forms of that opening. We relate to Love as 'other', as a feeling as a sensation and we continue that relationship through past events that we thought gave us love, but what actually happened is that we opened beyond our limited sense of self and person and Love streamed through  and up into the levels of form, such as the sense of self and person.

Because we have identified with space in time and our bodies being in space and time and being the body we have identified with Love in a particular manner of polarity. So we need particular similar events and everything needs to be right for Love to happen. But Love is all that is taking place! 

We can see how we patterned Love to need a particular form, along with a particular thought, a particular experience where we think we knew Love. We keep patterning that but Love is the opening in which the outpouring Love forms the universe and it is 'I' listening to these words now.  So is Love something that you can speak about in the past or is Love the outpouring of openness? 

 When you identify with the body-mind in the morning, instantly you close down the openness and you then are moving as the pattern. You might think it is your pattern but it is humanity's pattern on this level of reality until it 's gone. Gone either by immersion into what the openness is as One Self or by events.  Because we lack the true movement of Love in our meditation and enjoyment of life, we believe 'someone is the cause of my pain'. This is not openness flowing and moving and not true meditation of forms. You are opening forms in the belief that they are from the past but they are forms pouring out into reality here and now and have no past.  

It starts with you looking into the bathroom mirror and believing that is YOU. It starts with a thought you identify YOU with that immediately attaches to your name. As a baby would confirm: I am no body. Become as a child and discover that. 

Much of our suffering and our difficulty is our inability to be the openness that we already are and fall deeper into that openness without reserve. We teach ourselves to reserve ourselves on so many levels.  We hang onto the belief that we need something to be this Love and we do not. We simply need to fall into the deep, the abyss, the 'prior to' becoming anything . Then forms are the living forms of that newness. 

If we don't go into this in our lives, then this is just a show, just mere entertainment. Sometimes, quite often actually, when one realises deeper it is a bit of a quake, where all your old forms fall into. But that is how you discover you stand free of your forms. You just think that they are you. Life gives you the opportunity to know the deep deeply and then it forms. Then you really know You are in the deep, a divine Creator, pouring out of the spaciousness and manifesting what you are in in the deep. 

Listen to B speak this passage

 

When We Speak Truth Together

So you’re looking at ‘him’ (B) and he is looking at you but that is a stream of light where the Self knows Itself. It looks like you are looking at him and it looks like he is looking at you but truly it is God knowing God. Add images forms and sensations to that and it separates and individuates. If you don’t do that everyone in this room will realise Oneness - really in the body. When we deeply speak Truth together – not ‘my truth' , but TRUTH, it unites the field in the One that truly is.

 

Parents Are Profound Caregivers For Love to Know Itself

I am using the analogy of a parent in terms of a profound caregiver for Love to know itself in body - fully embodied. That iss what a parent is, a profound caregiver. If parents loved the child utterly as the appearance of spaciousness coming up to form, selflessly and utterly, would the world be different?  Or do we just keep passing on the pattern of Love as a pattern but not the true nature of Consciousness?

Would the world be different if the parents would not create families but remain in the open womb that the child was conceived in, where beings merged and invited other beings into embodiment so they could meet in the flesh and in Being and therefore manifest the universe in a profounder deepening moving reality - the movement of Love? If it were truly like that, would much of what we experience on the planet take place as it does? 


Day 5

"Freedom is not freedom from something. Freedom is freedom AS everything." 

"Everything is a hall of mirrors reflecting Oneness to the One."

"Paying attention to what’s moving is foolish. Giving your power to what is truly moving it is wisdom." 

"Self-Realisation is there is no distance, there is no space and time that divides the One from its true forms. That is awakening."

"The light of Knowing is only knowing its own light . Aware and Real. Refracted means you have to look in the past and have a future and it is definitely a hall of mirrors and not one glow, one whole bright Reality."

 

A Hall of Mirrors

When you are awakening it is as if you enter a hall of mirrors in your self and in your person. It is a hall of mirrors but the light is the same un-refracted light. It is all a reflection leading back to the same One who is knowing. All this is a hall of mirrors but you are called to the great Hall where true radiance is.  This is where you want to abide as Awareness.  That is true aware Knowing. 

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It looks like 'someone' is awakening but in truth the Only One is eternally awakening. Eternally, without beginning and end, awakening in the liquid forms of light that like a volcano, settles in form. Life comes from a liquid form of light, such as a volcano. The lava now seems to be static, growing life forms but it is not. If you go into what was once lava, you will see it is still moving. Now it is moving as life forms, all endeavouring to remember the fire they came out of. It is  really like this, the earth is such a wonderful mirror of what is deeply, deeply real, veiled only by the illusion of 'other'.

 As Awareness directly awakening, this will have your body, your self and your person immediately. You will be knowing the divine work or the deep work of the deep unveiling itself, no matter who it seems to be. The unveiling of the same One to the same One, no matter who it seems to be and no matter how that first, let's call it explosion of the interior, landed, moved, formed and is now growing and evolving.  It is still the same One.  

When it lands here it individuates a little. It looks like a lot but it is just a little, maybe three percent, but what is three percent of a powerful output of Source?  That is a great deal moving. Every apparent individual has immense power as a being and that power is literally manifesting the life.

When Awareness gives its power to the illusion of separation, it builds a separate sense of self only to return that seemingly separate sense of self, which begins in waking up to mirror the intensity of the undoing, the intensity of the unveiling of the power given away to separateness, to individuate what it is. It is doing it to itself!  No one is doing it.   'I Am' the one who is moving this, the one who is listening to these words now, appearing to be someone amongst the crowd, but 'I Am' amongst my own radiant self-forms in the volcanic eruption of my calling to express what I am into all manner of forms. Into all manner of levels of intelligence, all manner of vibrant vibrating beings that are all masked until called. Called in terms of the highest, highest possibility. 

The Calling is always now. People relate that to having distance. Self-realisation is: ‘there is no distance’, there is no space and time that divides the One from its true forms. That is awakening. To truly engage that in life is to immediately affect untold change, which appears to be devastating to the old sense of self you once moved with. You cannot mix the old way with the first way of light moving. You cannot mix it. You think you can mix it because you are this artful being that is able to instantly be and believe you are a whole-body, wholly what you are but you are mix of levels. You can have deeper realisation and still keep your old ways and move a little of the new way.  That is confusion and pain and suffering on the outside.

Not for others, it looks like for others but each one is response-able, whether they are going to be able to respond to the deep in that manner to transform the self is what everyone finds out. There is a belief that someone causes us pain. No, it is the Only One awakening to the Only One…Everything is a hall of mirrors reflecting the oneness to the One. Also reflecting all the disjointedness. It is the Self, the Supreme Self, as Awareness avoiding all the mirrors. IT is the light - reflected or not, unchanged Knowing, unaltered by the many mirrors. Only seemingly so. The light of Knowing is only knowing its own light. Aware and Real. Refracted means you have to look in the past and have a future and it is definitely a hall of mirrors and not one glow, one whole bright Reality. 

When Awareness drops a little into the Truth of what truly is and doesn’t divide that into ‘other’ then what seems to be difficult and painful is simply the shedding of the old way and the movement of the New that has no need of past is now moving. 

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Awareness begins to see that what it is at source is already flourishing, no matter what takes place in the hall of mirrors. It all comes from and returns to the great hall, where nothing ever happens. 

There will always be a hall of mirrors and a great hall, to which the refracted light returns to know itself.  It returns each refraction to the great hall, which means the whole. That is the cosmic game and the one who is listening is even beyond all that. So paying attention to what is moving becomes very very foolish. Giving your power to what is truly moving it, is wisdom. 

That is the impulse that is moving the whole of life throughout the cosmos. You are realising deeper ‘home’ whilst that gets expressed as new life and an entirely new way.  The relating that you have to the body-mind, thought and feeling is changed. You are now seeing from a deeper place which gives you true perspective in what is taking place in mind, in will, in body,in life. You now have one relationship only, to the depth and it is not divided, no matter what happens in the hall of mirrors. You begin to love it. You begin to love how that one is awakening and unveiling in and as You. This is the Real You unveiling itself to itself. You begin to love its whole singular movement and you begin to see this movement everywhere - how it unveils itself to itself. Creation is IT veiled, unveiling IT.

That can come down right down to this very place – right here. But 'here' the hall of mirrors is going to go whoooooosh and whoooooom! If you are not ready for that sound it will be far too much for you. But is actually the sound of you coming out and going in, coming out whilst going up coming down, going out, coming in.  It is one unbelievable movement of True You.  You love it.  But to love it and to discover that love you will need to be loving others as your own self.  You won't find it any other way. This ends on this level, the light needing to split itself into mirrors. You realise that everything is already shining and there is no refraction.  A flower is as much of the Godhead as one who realises itself in human form.

 

No Distance

The Calling is always Now. People relate a sense of distance to this. Self-realisation is: there is no distance, there is no space and time that divides the One from its true forms. That is awakening.

 

Called To Go Beyond Distraction

Awakening Awareness is called to go beyond all distraction, all contraction, all inflammation and be its first light and movement. This will change the world we apparently live in.

You are never up against society or up against your family. You who is aware in the light of Awareness are always meeting what is out-flowed and becomes solid identification.

I have been here since the beginning of time and I am here at the end and I discover I am not a beginning or an end. If you enter society as what you are first, you transform it, because you are what made it.

You are prior to all relatedness. Relate only to that Knowing in all your relationships, that is how the universe is born. Then you are not growing in strength you are revealing simplicity which has untold mystery and power that never gets used by anybody.

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